sigh
I Haven't updated in awhile, and I feel I probably should to get some of this shit out.
School is now a week in and its going good. Anthropology is actually the better of the two classes. Philosophy is becoming harder and harder to understand every day. Its really becoming a mind fuck.
Work is still, well, Work. Same bullshit, different day.
In the relationship category... still bullshit as well. No one seems interested, no one cares. On that topic, I'm kind of afraid of any relationship now. Because who knows if they are really faithful. It really scares me. Commitment is HUGE for me. I cling and I'm there almost always. Uh, Whats the word.... I'm dependant. That also scares me. I hate relying on other people, because I have a hard time trusting anyone.
I'm currently getting over a sinus infection. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to get it checked out. I'm also going to the doctor to tell him more of my anxiety issues. I hope he'll recommend a physchaitrist. I really need some help with my mind. The end result, I hope, is to acquire some knowledge and some sort of meds to help me. I can't live like this any more.
I just got back from A wedding reception for some family friends. They're basically HUGE hollywood celebs now. Susy ( 2nd place winner of biggest loser) and Matt ( 1st place winner of the biggest loser) Just got married and I got to go to the Reception. There was soooo much media there. Cameras in everyones faces. It really bothered me.
Anyways. I'm going to go do nothing.
School is now a week in and its going good. Anthropology is actually the better of the two classes. Philosophy is becoming harder and harder to understand every day. Its really becoming a mind fuck.
Work is still, well, Work. Same bullshit, different day.
In the relationship category... still bullshit as well. No one seems interested, no one cares. On that topic, I'm kind of afraid of any relationship now. Because who knows if they are really faithful. It really scares me. Commitment is HUGE for me. I cling and I'm there almost always. Uh, Whats the word.... I'm dependant. That also scares me. I hate relying on other people, because I have a hard time trusting anyone.
I'm currently getting over a sinus infection. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to get it checked out. I'm also going to the doctor to tell him more of my anxiety issues. I hope he'll recommend a physchaitrist. I really need some help with my mind. The end result, I hope, is to acquire some knowledge and some sort of meds to help me. I can't live like this any more.
I just got back from A wedding reception for some family friends. They're basically HUGE hollywood celebs now. Susy ( 2nd place winner of biggest loser) and Matt ( 1st place winner of the biggest loser) Just got married and I got to go to the Reception. There was soooo much media there. Cameras in everyones faces. It really bothered me.
Anyways. I'm going to go do nothing.