eh, who cares
i don't know what to write in here but i felt like trying to think of something even if no one reads this.
spring break, right around the corner. hopefully it will turn out as fantastic as i imagine it to. i just want to be able to take my mind off things and relax and do things at my own pace.
hmm
i'm starting to get this horrible feeling and i don't know how to make it stop. well, i know how but even by putting effort into it, it is not my decision on when things will be back to the way they were. i don't care about a lot of things that i would normally care about. that's not like me. i feel like i should shut up and not talk for a while. i'll just listen to other people because i feel like shit when i tell people things that are wrong with me or what's going on in my life. that sounds ridiculous. i'm ridiculous. i just want to drive somewhere else and stay there for a long time. i don't even know why this is happening. i don't even cry and i have been every day for about a week. fucking lame idiot. i should stop complaining, you all don't like me anyways. i want summer to come because naked trampoline jumping sounds excellent right about now even if i do it alone.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
spring break, right around the corner. hopefully it will turn out as fantastic as i imagine it to. i just want to be able to take my mind off things and relax and do things at my own pace.
hmm
i'm starting to get this horrible feeling and i don't know how to make it stop. well, i know how but even by putting effort into it, it is not my decision on when things will be back to the way they were. i don't care about a lot of things that i would normally care about. that's not like me. i feel like i should shut up and not talk for a while. i'll just listen to other people because i feel like shit when i tell people things that are wrong with me or what's going on in my life. that sounds ridiculous. i'm ridiculous. i just want to drive somewhere else and stay there for a long time. i don't even know why this is happening. i don't even cry and i have been every day for about a week. fucking lame idiot. i should stop complaining, you all don't like me anyways. i want summer to come because naked trampoline jumping sounds excellent right about now even if i do it alone.
what the fuck is wrong with me?