so.
Emma still hasnt come back to school. i dont blame her. I would be scared if i were her. Um... ye har.
Ian is in canberra which is nice. Has been since wednesday night. I am liking this coming down to canberra thing.
i am having such a tough time with my family at the moment. my mother in particular. She isnt being very easy to get along with. I try and disengage but it does not work. last night after berating my about my weight in the middle of tilleys she buys a huge slice of choclate pecan pie and trys to make me eat some. bitch. i am convinced that she is completely nuts.
i hate the way that she acts, and i hate the way she wishes that i had never been born.
She tried to get me to talk about lydia and her moving out of her dads place. but i kept lacing it with little stabs at her. Like say "when lydias parents decided to break up they sat everyone down and talked about it. maturely. why cant you be mature?" and when she asks me about my life replying "why do you care? you never have before."
I think that it upsets her more when i do that kind of thing than when I Yell and rant and rave. She finally got the story of the fight out of me. which was quite an acheivement considering what she did the other night. the sad thing is those kind of things arent a one off occurence anymore. They happen all the time so i dont even remember what happened. as I thought she would she placed quite a lot of the blame on me for not getting a teacher or whatever. fuck her up her stupid arse. Fuck her and her temper tantrums. she told me that i would be better off dead. I think that i would.
Ian is in canberra which is nice. Has been since wednesday night. I am liking this coming down to canberra thing.
i am having such a tough time with my family at the moment. my mother in particular. She isnt being very easy to get along with. I try and disengage but it does not work. last night after berating my about my weight in the middle of tilleys she buys a huge slice of choclate pecan pie and trys to make me eat some. bitch. i am convinced that she is completely nuts.
i hate the way that she acts, and i hate the way she wishes that i had never been born.
She tried to get me to talk about lydia and her moving out of her dads place. but i kept lacing it with little stabs at her. Like say "when lydias parents decided to break up they sat everyone down and talked about it. maturely. why cant you be mature?" and when she asks me about my life replying "why do you care? you never have before."
I think that it upsets her more when i do that kind of thing than when I Yell and rant and rave. She finally got the story of the fight out of me. which was quite an acheivement considering what she did the other night. the sad thing is those kind of things arent a one off occurence anymore. They happen all the time so i dont even remember what happened. as I thought she would she placed quite a lot of the blame on me for not getting a teacher or whatever. fuck her up her stupid arse. Fuck her and her temper tantrums. she told me that i would be better off dead. I think that i would.