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just got back from the doctor. i've gained 9 pounds since october, making that almost 20 pounds since i started dating aaron. pooo. it's time to diet.
they gave me new birth control and sleeping pills. the new bc is supposed to get my body back on track. -crosses fingers- she insisted on giving me sleeping pills because i made the mistake of telling her that i hadn't slept in a week.
i really don't think i need the sleeping pills. it's just stress. between the shit that's happened with aaron and what's going on with my family, it's expected that i lose sleep. hopefully these don't make me groggy. i hate that severely drugged feeling.
i got into a really big fight with my sister last night. i ended up sobbing for three hours. i couldn't stop. she treats me like i'm some piece of shit that doesn't give a crap about anything in the family when i have given up so much for them. she just drove a giant knife into my heart last night. i was so upset that i couldn't breathe.
aaron and i talked for a really long time last night. i forgot how much he calmed me when i felt that the world was coming down around my head. i miss him. a lot. i just wish we worked. =(
there's one good thing that came out of the break up. i started drawing again. i broke out my nikon too. it's like sadness makes me want to be an artist again. i guess it lets me take my mind off of everything that is going wrong in my life.
this entry has gotten rather depressing. greeaat.
oh yeah. happy new year guys.
<3
they gave me new birth control and sleeping pills. the new bc is supposed to get my body back on track. -crosses fingers- she insisted on giving me sleeping pills because i made the mistake of telling her that i hadn't slept in a week.
i really don't think i need the sleeping pills. it's just stress. between the shit that's happened with aaron and what's going on with my family, it's expected that i lose sleep. hopefully these don't make me groggy. i hate that severely drugged feeling.
i got into a really big fight with my sister last night. i ended up sobbing for three hours. i couldn't stop. she treats me like i'm some piece of shit that doesn't give a crap about anything in the family when i have given up so much for them. she just drove a giant knife into my heart last night. i was so upset that i couldn't breathe.
aaron and i talked for a really long time last night. i forgot how much he calmed me when i felt that the world was coming down around my head. i miss him. a lot. i just wish we worked. =(
there's one good thing that came out of the break up. i started drawing again. i broke out my nikon too. it's like sadness makes me want to be an artist again. i guess it lets me take my mind off of everything that is going wrong in my life.
this entry has gotten rather depressing. greeaat.
oh yeah. happy new year guys.
<3