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I just had the best christmas I've ever had. So we kissed once and I caused me to paint her because I couldn't get her out of my head fast enough and onto the canvas. (even though it was really bad.. still!)
I just rolled around in the snow in the middle of a London park at night on Christmas eve with a beautiful girl in my arms, and I liked it. Hell, it's been the best damned Christmas Eve I've ever had.
I'm really an arse for doing this, but I don't care. Obviously, if that Baddock guy was doing his job right then she wouldn't be thinking of me, and she is. So what she's got a boyfriend, right? I'm not willing to fuck her relationship with someone she's known her entire life until she is willing to. I'm not making that move for her. Besides, what kind of guy would I be asking her to do something like that when I know she can't have possibly had the time to truely think this out. I'm not even sure what I feel, and I don't have a weighty decision on my shoulders. I've already made my mind up anyway, but still. I'm going to enjoy myself, have fun and not feel guilty about it.
It's that poor bastard's problem, not mine.
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I just had the best christmas I've ever had. So we kissed once and I caused me to paint her because I couldn't get her out of my head fast enough and onto the canvas. (even though it was really bad.. still!)
I just rolled around in the snow in the middle of a London park at night on Christmas eve with a beautiful girl in my arms, and I liked it. Hell, it's been the best damned Christmas Eve I've ever had.
I'm really an arse for doing this, but I don't care. Obviously, if that Baddock guy was doing his job right then she wouldn't be thinking of me, and she is. So what she's got a boyfriend, right? I'm not willing to fuck her relationship with someone she's known her entire life until she is willing to. I'm not making that move for her. Besides, what kind of guy would I be asking her to do something like that when I know she can't have possibly had the time to truely think this out. I'm not even sure what I feel, and I don't have a weighty decision on my shoulders. I've already made my mind up anyway, but still. I'm going to enjoy myself, have fun and not feel guilty about it.
It's that poor bastard's problem, not mine.
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