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[_having_amnesia]

i know so many people have it worse than i do. i know. really. in so many ways i am so lucky.

but fucking shit man. my life is a goddamn fucking mess. all day. every day. and has been for years. and i see no way out. in fact it only gets worse.

every day i am trying not to drown. every day i sink a little deeper.

i am tired of life and this shit world kicking my ass every moment. i need a fucking break. and some fucking money.