ok, so here's the thing...
seth and i broke up.
i did it. it's my fault. i wasn't totally happy and had been coming to realize for some time that no matter how much i love him, i am never going to get everything i need from him. something is missing. i can't explain it but i know when it is there or isn't. i always knew it wasn't, i just loved him so much i thought it didn't matter.
turns out though, it really does.
he is going to italy for a month on wednesday. pretty fucking sweet post-breakup trip. i hope he gets what he needs from it. when he comes back in june he will move his stuff out. he and i are still on good terms. everything is still really normal and natural between us, other than we are trying to come to terms with a new relationship. after a lot of time apart i think we will be able to retain a close friendship.
i am sorry. i wish he had been the one. i really really do. this is not easy.
i did it. it's my fault. i wasn't totally happy and had been coming to realize for some time that no matter how much i love him, i am never going to get everything i need from him. something is missing. i can't explain it but i know when it is there or isn't. i always knew it wasn't, i just loved him so much i thought it didn't matter.
turns out though, it really does.
he is going to italy for a month on wednesday. pretty fucking sweet post-breakup trip. i hope he gets what he needs from it. when he comes back in june he will move his stuff out. he and i are still on good terms. everything is still really normal and natural between us, other than we are trying to come to terms with a new relationship. after a lot of time apart i think we will be able to retain a close friendship.
i am sorry. i wish he had been the one. i really really do. this is not easy.