oh my god barbara she looks just like my mom
When did I become this person? Somehow, somewhere along the line from August 27th to now, I became this person that I haven't really, completely been since I was 15. I thought that college was about growth, not painful psychological regression.
And the more I think about it, the more the question becomes how is this person I've become going to make it through the next week? How will this girl keep it together until she gets home? And once she gets home, will it make any difference at all? Can I find the person I was, the one I was happy with, or will this new, depressive, sobbing Justine simply follow me from one location to another, looming over everything I do until I lose all notion of how I would once have lived my life?
What's even left of what I thought was living at this point?
And the more I think about it, the more the question becomes how is this person I've become going to make it through the next week? How will this girl keep it together until she gets home? And once she gets home, will it make any difference at all? Can I find the person I was, the one I was happy with, or will this new, depressive, sobbing Justine simply follow me from one location to another, looming over everything I do until I lose all notion of how I would once have lived my life?
What's even left of what I thought was living at this point?