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so...i never deleted this journal.
most of you are on my new journal, so if you are...please disregard this.
i'm not quite sure why i'm writing in here. a combination of i'm bored, get my mind of things/put my mind onto something else, and i also feel like wasting your time.
saturday night I went with michelle and her friends scott and kerri to see SHADOWS FALL and it was awesome. michelle and i got brian fairs signature which makes us awesome..because he is.
good times.
rocking back and forth to create the illusion of satisfaction is a lovely insane band.
so what's new. i think i have a crush but pretend i said that. the crushing will end soon though. it has to. that way there will be no rejection. that way everything will be ok.
i wish i was hot and pretty and not like this. i wish i wasnt so negative and so addicted to isolation. but that's me i guess. it will never change.
but im ok right now. i promise. it dosent matter that my family is a wreck and my sister is in the other room crying hysterically. i cant let it affect me anymore. dont jump to conclusions. things are not always what they seem to be. people are only scared, they act on impulse. the doctor says im sick. i feel fine. my lungs are not at the capasity that they should be. oh joy. i guess im going to die. but before i die can you please send me a very nice and pretty boy jesus? or can you at least give me some mental clarity? but im ok. i really am. i shouldnt complain. everything is ok. or at least it should be.
i should get to another show. to take my mind off things. its what i live for right now.
from saturday's show, taken by me.
theres more in my photobucket.
http://photobucket.com/albums/v180/soundofsulfur/shadows%20fall%2012%204/
most of you are on my new journal, so if you are...please disregard this.
i'm not quite sure why i'm writing in here. a combination of i'm bored, get my mind of things/put my mind onto something else, and i also feel like wasting your time.
saturday night I went with michelle and her friends scott and kerri to see SHADOWS FALL and it was awesome. michelle and i got brian fairs signature which makes us awesome..because he is.
good times.
rocking back and forth to create the illusion of satisfaction is a lovely insane band.
so what's new. i think i have a crush but pretend i said that. the crushing will end soon though. it has to. that way there will be no rejection. that way everything will be ok.
i wish i was hot and pretty and not like this. i wish i wasnt so negative and so addicted to isolation. but that's me i guess. it will never change.
but im ok right now. i promise. it dosent matter that my family is a wreck and my sister is in the other room crying hysterically. i cant let it affect me anymore. dont jump to conclusions. things are not always what they seem to be. people are only scared, they act on impulse. the doctor says im sick. i feel fine. my lungs are not at the capasity that they should be. oh joy. i guess im going to die. but before i die can you please send me a very nice and pretty boy jesus? or can you at least give me some mental clarity? but im ok. i really am. i shouldnt complain. everything is ok. or at least it should be.
i should get to another show. to take my mind off things. its what i live for right now.
from saturday's show, taken by me.
theres more in my photobucket.
http://photobucket.com/albums/v180/soundofsulfur/shadows%20fall%2012%204/