So your point is that we should let ourselves grow according to how God shapes us, and act according to our stage of growth? ...there is a certain appealing logic to that, I suppose, although I'm not sure that's how it's supposed to work. Because the bible does have some rather specific commands for us...
My main problem is actually the "love thy enemies" command. As you know, I used to be incredibly vindictive, and heck I probably still am. And there's a particular b****** in camp who gets on just about everyone's nerves. Sometimes I try to be nice to him, but most of the time (especially when he's throwing his weight around, which is 90% of the time)...it feels good to jointly slam him and bitch about him together with the other guys. I generally try to be nice and helpful in camp, which for some reason people have come to attribute to my religious affiliation, so lately one of the guys in camp used the fact that even I had nothing good to say about him and detested him so much as a benchmark for how screwed up that guy was. Now the vindictive part of me was having a field day, but I'm also concerned because at least in my branch I'm labelled "that Christian", and I'm not being a very good example of one.
we're all human.. don't worry too much about it. generally for me, whenever i'm upset or really pissed at someone/thing i give in to excess, for awhile, until i feel spent and then i forget about it. because there's really nothing worth my time enough for rancor or pettiness. generally my only prevailing sentiment about much of the world is disappointment; occasionally amusement.
if you have to bitch then bitch, but don't spend many hours later planning how to knife him in the back (or in the open). or, contemplate for awhile if it makes you happy, then let go.
correct me if i'm wrong, but the essence of buddhism is something about detachment to find peace isn't it? and i suppose there's a lot of truth to that, you know. about being a 'role model'.. heck. i don't care. don't get too caught up with how people see you. do what's right when it is impt. if it's small petty things like this, it's alright to occasionally be petty too. but when it comes to the crunch, to something that really tests yr faith and yr principles just know what you're standing for.
she's alright :) yes yes, i'll watch that silly show w you. we never watch anythng but really shitty movies like highlander 4 and cats and dogs.. *cringew* chalk up one more 4 e animal genre eh
So your point is that we should let ourselves grow according to how God shapes us, and act according to our stage of growth? ...there is a certain appealing logic to that, I suppose, although I'm not sure that's how it's supposed to work. Because the bible does have some rather specific commands for us...
My main problem is actually the "love thy enemies" command. As you know, I used to be incredibly vindictive, and heck I probably still am. And there's a particular b****** in camp who gets on just about everyone's nerves. Sometimes I try to be nice to him, but most of the time (especially when he's throwing his weight around, which is 90% of the time)...it feels good to jointly slam him and bitch about him together with the other guys. I generally try to be nice and helpful in camp, which for some reason people have come to attribute to my religious affiliation, so lately one of the guys in camp used the fact that even I had nothing good to say about him and detested him so much as a benchmark for how screwed up that guy was. Now the vindictive part of me was having a field day, but I'm also concerned because at least in my branch I'm labelled "that Christian", and I'm not being a very good example of one.
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if you have to bitch then bitch, but don't spend many hours later planning how to knife him in the back (or in the open). or, contemplate for awhile if it makes you happy, then let go.
correct me if i'm wrong, but the essence of buddhism is something about detachment to find peace isn't it? and i suppose there's a lot of truth to that, you know. about being a 'role model'.. heck. i don't care. don't get too caught up with how people see you. do what's right when it is impt. if it's small petty things like this, it's alright to occasionally be petty too. but when it comes to the crunch, to something that really tests yr faith and yr principles just know what you're standing for.
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chalk up one more 4 e animal genre eh
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