thoughts of emotion.....part 1

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so some of you who actually care are probably wondering whats been going on in the head of kristin michelle. the truth is not to much. i've been trying to jus keep a clear head. at time i find myself fearing of fallng to the same trap of insanity and losing my grip again but i refuse to feel such stupidity again so i'm trying my hardest to stay from that situation again. i have enough people looking at me to remind me everyday of the life i was leading starting about two years ago. i hate the way they look at me walking down these halls now. i hate the smerks and all the whispering. those whose who sit there with no lives of their own just worrying about mine. they sit there and watch you suffer and pray that you will soon squirm. they wanna see you fall again and they refuse to let you forget. those people take pride in your pain. those people with no lives of their own. i'm avoiding leading that life again. so i keep my head clear and everyday i am reminded of what stupidity i carried apon myself. everyday i am forced to walk down these halls and look at these faces because i refuse to be a failure. i refuse to stare at the ground as they take pride in such suffering. i refuse to be a loser. i refuse to let them win. I am my own strength and happiness.

.......to be continued.