Enough Is Enough....
Have you ever been pushed to the point where you're just not sure anymore which end is up and which end is down? Have you ever been told that you are hated, and then that you are loved, and then that you are hated, and then you are loved (and so on and so forth), so many times that you're starting to wonder which is the actual fact and which is
( Read more... )
anyways, as I was saying - and read well, because it's very well the last thing I'll ever say to you - block me from everything - doesn't matter cause I won't talk to you anyways - and I wish people could see why too just cause you're making such a big deal about wanting everyone to *see it*
I guess our entire relationship the entire time I've known you was a lie then, because you never let me in - I never said that not ever being happy with someone made you a bad person - on the contrary, I make a point in telling people that I think you're a good person!!! ASK FUCKING ANYONE!!!! but you are treating me like fucking SHIT!!!! CAN YOU NOT FUCKING SEE THAT?!?!?!? ARE YOU COMPLETELY BLIND???? and it's not just me you do it to - you do the same shit with everyone!!! why do you think everyone's been taking a step back from you??? because nothing ever changes - you just get mad over and over and over again and you never really let anything go - and maybe I am bitter about some stuff from our past, but it's because you've never once taken enough responsibility for the way things are with us - you were lying to me as early as january greg - hell, you were lying to me before that, I just chose to let it go and persue a relationship with you anyways because I cared about you and thought it'd be worth the risk - perhaps that was my mistake - but you've never fully appologized for some things and you've never fully taken responsibility for them and shown remorse for them, and so of course I'm still a little bitter about them - I'm doing my best to get past it, believe me
Reply
and i wont keep apologizing
as much as i want to explain to you why i keep people at arm's length i just cant do it. and i sure as hell wont do it here.
and i will unblock you later...i'm just tired of making my entry a place for us to argue.
i've told you a million times that you are a much better person than i am. everybody i care about is a much better person than i am. i told you long ago you could do much better than me. it still holds true.
why you choose to bring more drama to my life when i am trying to get away from it baffles me. trust me...i am dealing with things right now which are more than enough for me to worry about. i dont need this.
my life consists of trying to enjoy anybody who brings me temporary happiness while i can...because i know that in short time it will be gone. such are my friends in san diego. they are now gone. such is you. you are now gone. of course i blame myself. i'm not blind. thanks for having this discussion with me here. now even people who didnt have an opinion on me might dislike me, too! take care.
Reply
Reply
trust me...i think i'm doing a decent job of handling myself with what i have to live with.
and i wasnt trying to have the last word!! jesus.
i just wish we werent having this discussion here.
Reply
Reply
i'm going to ask you one question
how many times was i in the hospital while we were living together?
if you said none you are far off.
no, i do not share my life fully with anyone. and i'm sorry, but that is a choice i made a while ago.
Reply
Reply
Leave a comment