Three Left
I just totally freaked out. I was looking at the Nicholls homepage and I saw a picture of the graduating students, and it made me think. Right now, life is easy. Yeah, a little stressful at times, but it's like living in a bubble. I'm not in the real world yet. I do not have to work a full day of work tomorrow and the next day and the next and next and next. I have already gotten through my first year of college, and I am kind of sad. Not that school is over, but that I did not make the most of my full first year of college. As a matter of fact, my senior year and my first semester and ½ of college were not all they could have been. I will not get into the reasons for that, but I am really disappointed in myself. Yes, I did have many awesome times and made a lot of memories, and I'm not sure I would necessarily go back and do it again, but I just feel a small amount of regret when I think back. There were a lot of times that I wanted to do things that I didn't for one reason or another (usually for one reason). If I WOULD go back, there are a lot of things I would change. I would have gone to Grad Night. I wouldn't have dropped out of Cancun right at the last minute. I would have gone out or to the parties I was invited to a lot more. I would have rushed last fall. I would have gone out on a Thursday night first semester. But then again, the way things happened shaped who I am today, and this is no pity party. I did do a lot of fun things. I went to parties and I went out and I did end up pledging to a sorority. Who knows, if I would have done formal recruitment, I may not have ended up with the awesome ladies that I am with now. I do go out Thursday nights.. and Friday and Saturday nights too :) So in the end, maybe it's not regret that I feel. I don't know the word for it. But what I do know is that I only have three more years of college (at least undergraduate). Three years to make up for what I did miss, and three years to be a kid, and three years to make amazing relationships and friendships and bonds, and three years to have the most meaningful, most fun, best experience of my life.