why? just why?

[_forevercursed_]

today was good at the beginning.
play performance really early for the kindergarteners.
my music class had to see it ::chokes::
we missed almost all classes and i had lunch, went back to class
for 15 minutes and had lunch again.
went home on the bus. ate mac n' cheese and
then left for the play performance at 5:30.
i got all made up and all that jazz. talked to karissa,kam,
mike,aly, tabby, rich and all my play buddies. i did kind of
good i guess. why am i so hard on myself. i never do good enough.
i was watching the rest of the cast from the risors and i was
wicked jealous and its not fair. ed came to the performance again
tonight. i was happy, even though i saw him for two seconds.
kristin came to the performance. i havent seen her since she moved.
i didnt think she would recognize me or remember me or anything but
she did and said i did a good job. everyone in the play is acting
different, which isnt that weird for a group of actors, but its just
people are being really different and its sadning. maybe i just
expect too much from people. i need to stop relying on everyone else,
because at the end of every performance i feel like crying and its
not even cool. :z why do i suck so bad?




dollface

goodnight'