Apr 21, 2005 23:33
L.A. just didn't feel the same when I went back there with Fred to get the book she needed. I dunno if it's because G's dead, or because most of the others are still missin'... or even because no sooner did we set foot in the door than I had to stake this huge-ass vamp who was rompin' all over Xan, Spike and the rich nerdy guy... I can't think of his name right now. The fun of bein' the only Slayer around never ends.
Xander decided to drive back with us when we told him Willow'd made it back, leavin' Spike and Nerd Boy to deal with the mess and the hotel. We got the book and floored it back to the 'dale. Fred went back to researchin', Xan and Red had a big huggy kissy reunion. More fun than the law should allow, I'm tellin' ya. I hope the book helps somethin'. I want B back here, where she should be. And ya know, me and Cordy aren't on the best terms, but I kinda miss her, too.
I dunno. I feel all unsettled, and there's nothin' specific I can lay it off on. I've been sittin' out on the back porch for a while, listenin' to the night. The house feels too full tonight. Xan's over watchin' TV with Red and Tara, Fred's mopin' in the dinin' room, cross-referencin' stuff and takin' notes, and Dawnie's kinda upset and hidin' in her room -- she said somethin' about a friend bein' in the hospital. I dunno where Oz is. Prob'ly lurkin' in the shadows somewhere.
That's weird, too. Don't even get me started. I think I'm just gonna have to let whatever's gonna happen, happen. He's one boy who won't be pushed anywhere 'til he's ready to go, and I've decided I can live with that. I want him in my life, and I finally got it through my thick head that it's gonna have to be on his terms.