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I feel like shit. I'm getting to that state again...I don't want to sleep at night, just during the day. And do nothing but sit around and listen to music and read.
I've fucked myself over for my English class. I hate myself for it. I've got all this pint up anger towards my behavior inside of me but I'm scared to do the things I need to do to fix it. I hate it. I've had a long battle most of my life dealing with my apathy towards certain things and the other side of me that wants to do well. I can say that things will work themselves out like they always have but I don't know how well thats going to work these days. Let me please lock myself in my room all day only leaving for bathroom breaks and the Majestic at nighttime. I'd like that. I think.
I need to get away. I need to feel OK. Now.
I've fucked myself over for my English class. I hate myself for it. I've got all this pint up anger towards my behavior inside of me but I'm scared to do the things I need to do to fix it. I hate it. I've had a long battle most of my life dealing with my apathy towards certain things and the other side of me that wants to do well. I can say that things will work themselves out like they always have but I don't know how well thats going to work these days. Let me please lock myself in my room all day only leaving for bathroom breaks and the Majestic at nighttime. I'd like that. I think.
I need to get away. I need to feel OK. Now.