Update... Everything SUCKS as always ;(
I haven't writen in a while because well nothing as changed! I'm really tired. Things are getting so much worse and its scaring me! Well lets see... I got a new car thats about it in that area. The dance recital was tonight and of course I didnt' get any awards :( I have no friends I'm all alone and i hate it! My sister didnt come to my dance rectial tonight thanks alot! I have no gf and I feel that if I don't get one soon I'm going to really explode. I mean it wouldnt' be that bad if I actually had friends but I have nothing and no one! Whats the point in living like this? My mom said I can't live alone forever well DUH! But i'm afraid I'm going to be alone forever! Being single sucks so bad and its really pulling me down! *sigh* I feel like i'm going to explode any day now. I feel like I'm going to just give up I really do. I"m so tired and i'm so sick of pretending notbing is wrong because I know people are thinking get a life! Sorry if I don't like being alone! I feel so fat and so unwanted and so alone I hate it! I swear sometimes these feelings are worse then the depression! Well thats about it I suppose... again nothing good to write about! All misery and heartache and fucking bull shit! I want to just give up!
