you just dont understand

[_esperance]

the reason i told you what he said
was so that you would fully realize
how much you mean to me. it
wasnt to upset you or anything.
i care so much that it almost seems surreal
thats why it hurts so much when you say
somethings.... that shouldnt hurt...
i worry about you, and that seems to be a problem
im paranoid... that something is going to happen
and that it will end us. i dont want that.
and i hope you dont either.
we saw a shooting star tonight...
and i wonder if our wish was the same.
i really doubt it was, but its a nice thought.
im sorry i worry so much and take too many things
to heart... its just the way i've always been.
like i said maybe one day you'll understand just
how much you mean to me. i dont think you understand
the impact you have on my life sometimes...
and that kind of hurts.