#88
It bothers me everyday...
I see reminders everyday...
I want to move.. leave.. break away...
Words are POISON.
I first thought... he's the ass... he's the one who should be put throw hell from putting me throw this torture that i shall live with all my life...
But... then i think... then i remember... then after many days, weeks, months... after a year... i look back... i think about it... remember it without the tears... i see it... and i see... it isn't him... he's not the ass...
I'm just the weakling... i'm just the stupid one... i got what i asked for... i got what i deserved... so why am i like this? why do i hide my trueself? why do i fake smile so people leave me alone?
Why is it at times that being alone is scary but being with people is terrifiing?
I hate him... but hate me more.
Hate what i have become... HATE what i was before...
......there is nothing left in me to love...
I see reminders everyday...
I want to move.. leave.. break away...
Words are POISON.
I first thought... he's the ass... he's the one who should be put throw hell from putting me throw this torture that i shall live with all my life...
But... then i think... then i remember... then after many days, weeks, months... after a year... i look back... i think about it... remember it without the tears... i see it... and i see... it isn't him... he's not the ass...
I'm just the weakling... i'm just the stupid one... i got what i asked for... i got what i deserved... so why am i like this? why do i hide my trueself? why do i fake smile so people leave me alone?
Why is it at times that being alone is scary but being with people is terrifiing?
I hate him... but hate me more.
Hate what i have become... HATE what i was before...
......there is nothing left in me to love...