empty and dismal
I hate being unproductive. for the past few days, I have been doing little more than haunting my own house. there is nothing to do and even if there were, there is no one to do it with. I wouldn't mind being so lonely if it weren't for the fact that no one is with me.
I need to get a multivitamin, eat better, and exercise more. my sister says the multivitamin will help with my rampant hair loss - my record is clogging the shower drain in less than ten minutes of being in the shower. Sometimes I have to clear it out three times in one shower so my feet don't drown. I definitely need to eat better - since time is just a glop of jelly, I've been going for quick fixes, like granola bars and those cupcakes I made, which weren't very good because they were an experiment with a boxed mix and it came out extremely unremarkable, except they look like something out of a sci-fi cookbook. so I've been scarfing down large amounts of sugar and fat, which leads me to my third point... I need to be more active. right now I pretty much sit around all day, except for the times that I lie around, and the brief moments when I am changing sit- or lie-spots. usually they are the couch, the other couch, my bed, my parents' bed, and my computer chair. sigh... I wish I had some company. I can never figure out when emily is volunteering and when she isn't, so I don't call her much anymore, so we're slowly becoming strangers. plus, for two days we had this bright shining vision of using her mom's workout tapes to exercise, but now she doesn't want to do that anymore. I would love to just walk around the park or around the block or all over the place, but I have no one to go with, and there's only so much physical exertion that I can indulge in all alone before I start talking to myself out loud and I don't care who hears me and what they think.
which reminds me of Dance Dance Revolution. you may recall that I am extremely addicted to it. however, due to circumstances beyond my control, it has been deprived me. namely, the room where we used to have the TV set up because the projector screen entertainment room for a few weeks until the bulb burned out, which will probably never be replaced, and now the room is filled with electric motorbike carcass pieces. my brother broke the stepmania (DDR knockoff) dance pad somehow and he hasn't gotten around to fixing it - I don't think he ever will - so that avenue has evaporated also. I kinda want to ask emily if I could bring over the playstation and play it at her house, but I'll bet the answer will be no.
I miss my senior friends. haley, danielle, ryan seifer, namphon, lisa, liz, regan, brandon, tom, katie, teresa, sammie, karri, ........ the whole lot of them. and then I also miss everybody else, like jen, alex, jake, ryan comer, cassandra, leslie, angela, frances, chris, rachel, bianca, alyssa, olga, mr. pawloski, mr. carbone, mr. dugan, mr. tucker, mrs. palsma, miss moore, mrs. moriarty, ............. and on and on.
"and though our lives change,
we remember
all the times we've
had together......."
=^.^=
I need to get a multivitamin, eat better, and exercise more. my sister says the multivitamin will help with my rampant hair loss - my record is clogging the shower drain in less than ten minutes of being in the shower. Sometimes I have to clear it out three times in one shower so my feet don't drown. I definitely need to eat better - since time is just a glop of jelly, I've been going for quick fixes, like granola bars and those cupcakes I made, which weren't very good because they were an experiment with a boxed mix and it came out extremely unremarkable, except they look like something out of a sci-fi cookbook. so I've been scarfing down large amounts of sugar and fat, which leads me to my third point... I need to be more active. right now I pretty much sit around all day, except for the times that I lie around, and the brief moments when I am changing sit- or lie-spots. usually they are the couch, the other couch, my bed, my parents' bed, and my computer chair. sigh... I wish I had some company. I can never figure out when emily is volunteering and when she isn't, so I don't call her much anymore, so we're slowly becoming strangers. plus, for two days we had this bright shining vision of using her mom's workout tapes to exercise, but now she doesn't want to do that anymore. I would love to just walk around the park or around the block or all over the place, but I have no one to go with, and there's only so much physical exertion that I can indulge in all alone before I start talking to myself out loud and I don't care who hears me and what they think.
which reminds me of Dance Dance Revolution. you may recall that I am extremely addicted to it. however, due to circumstances beyond my control, it has been deprived me. namely, the room where we used to have the TV set up because the projector screen entertainment room for a few weeks until the bulb burned out, which will probably never be replaced, and now the room is filled with electric motorbike carcass pieces. my brother broke the stepmania (DDR knockoff) dance pad somehow and he hasn't gotten around to fixing it - I don't think he ever will - so that avenue has evaporated also. I kinda want to ask emily if I could bring over the playstation and play it at her house, but I'll bet the answer will be no.
I miss my senior friends. haley, danielle, ryan seifer, namphon, lisa, liz, regan, brandon, tom, katie, teresa, sammie, karri, ........ the whole lot of them. and then I also miss everybody else, like jen, alex, jake, ryan comer, cassandra, leslie, angela, frances, chris, rachel, bianca, alyssa, olga, mr. pawloski, mr. carbone, mr. dugan, mr. tucker, mrs. palsma, miss moore, mrs. moriarty, ............. and on and on.
"and though our lives change,
we remember
all the times we've
had together......."
=^.^=