"and it reads like a letter with the words all broken, erase them with a razorblade cos you're gone"
I really do have real content... it's at the bottom.
"I can't stand to think about a heart so big it hurts like hell
Oh my God I gave my best but for three whole years to end like this
Well do you want to fall apart? I can't stop if you can't start
Do you want to fall apart? I could if you can try to fix what I've undone
Cause I hate what I've become
You know me, oh you think you do you just don't seem to see
I've been waiting all this time to be, something I can't define
So let's cause a scene, clap our hands and stomp our feet or something,
yeah something I've just got to get myself over me
I could stand to do without, all the people I have left behind
What's the point in going around when it's a straight line baby, a straight line down
So let's make a list of who we need and we'll throw it away
'Cause we don't need anyone, no we don't need anyone
You know me, oh you think you do you just don't seem to see
I've been waiting all this time to be, something I can't define
So let's cause a scene, clap our hands and stomp our feet or something,
yeah something I've just got to get myself over me
And I hate what I've become.
You know the night life is just not for me
'Cause all you really need are a few good friends
I don't want to go out and be on my own,
You know they started something I can't stand
You leave for the city,
Well count me out
'Cause all this time is wasted on everything I've done"
"Don't make a sound cause the song won't stop till the tape runs out when melody has nothing to hold,
I'll be the last sound that you hear as your eyes close and these chords remain
We'll use them to exploit the friends we've since forgot those friends we've lost you
All know just who you are cause I've since made graves but I'm too scared to etch the names
For fear that I'm the one who's changed
The thought of death it scares me to death and I dont know why,
I don't know it's just too much to never wake up"
"Goddamn i wish him the best we were kids back then as if we could progress but sometimes I just can't sleep, thinking of
Everything we could have been"
"It's killing me to see you
Just tie the rope and kick the chair
Leave me hanging there, gasping for air
Yeah, don't mind me three feet from the ceiling
You'd rather watch me drown,
Then see your hands get wet
You took the plot from stage to screen
And turned it to an epic scene
So whisper it once, tell me again,
C'mon, whisper it twice,
I cant stand to see my whole life flash before my eyes
When I'm with you there's no point in breathing,
No point in breathing
Just tie the rope and kick the chair
Leave me hanging there, gasping for air
Yeah, don't mind me three feet from the ceiling
And I think I know (whoah oh oh)
Why you never get to close
It's cause you're too scared to
When I'm with you
There's no point in breathing
So so you run
Away for no apparent reason
'Cause you and I are changing with the seasons
Don't give me an answer as to why you're leaving
The tables are full but nobody's been dealing
So fold your hand, c'mon, and fold your hand"
"let's just see who's
Up on this screen no one I know is more depressing then me or should I say the two of us cause after all we're all we've got
And tension speaks but we're singing it
haven't we heard this song about a thousand times before oh well after
Awhile it all sounds the same I guess it's better than silence and better than shame"
"cause theres no love like apathy
I'm trying to find truth in words, in rhymes, in notes, in all the things I wish I'd wrote cause I feel like I've been losing you
I read your last entry
you don't hold me like you used to and your eyes look like they've seen
Too much
you should have seen the looks I just received I need a reason to let go an
Intervention, a lullaby something to cure me please believe me"
"come the morning I'll be gone and as our eyes start to close I turn to you and I let you know that I
Love you
I ran, I couldn't even
Look at him for fear I'd have to say goodbye and as I start to leave he grabs me by the shoulder and he tells me what's left
To lose, you've done enough and if you fail well then you fail but not to us cause these last three years, I know they've been
Hard but now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if it's alone
that's the way it's been, ever since we were kids but now, now we've got
Something to prove and I, I can see their eyes but tell me something, can they see mine cause what's left to lose, I've done
Enough and if I fail well then I fail but I gave it a shot and these last three years, I know they've been hard but now it's
Time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if it's alone"
"Forgive me you cut out again, it seems so easy just to blame the reception but there's something wrong and I don't know why
Why you, you never say goodbye so please just leave, you don't mean that much to me you keep the ring, I'll take those
Saturdays in bed cause I know you need them as for me it's nothing new just another two years I wish we'd always wake up new,
Refreshed and born again with nothing left to lose but we dream too much and who needs a crutch pull off the bandage, there's
No wound so please just leave, you don't mean that much to me give back the ring, keep all those summers with your friends
Cause you know you need them as for me it's nothing new just another two years that I'm here losing sleep your sore thumb,
Your best defense is miles from home oh and it reads like a letter, with the words all broken erased them with a razorblade
Cause you're gone I was lost then I found you but I'm breaking down now"
"In a dream that I can't seem to shake she is, she is standing alone by the fence I see tears in her eyes why she crys I just
Don't know what a mess that I make of my days then there's you, you're a mess to be made, a mess to be made and the dream
Starts to fade away so you're leaving for months at a time, I help you out the door but once you're gone I just stare out the
Window please, could you please come back home what a mess that I make of my days trying to save myself, save myself then
There's you, you're a mess to be made a canvas only paint could change and a voice on the other end of the phone, says why
Don't you write a song about it well here goes, I was raised on something that you'll never know I'd hate this place if it
Weren't for the waves if it weren't for the fact that you love it where they measure a man on the money he spends well my love
Is not a bank statement what a mess that I make of my days trying to save myself, save myself then there's you, you're a mess
To be made, a mess to be made, a mess to be made and the dream starts to fade away"
"I know you're left
Behind but I'll do my best to feel broke down it's been a minute, a second, I'll wait for you to make a sound but I know, I
Know you're taking time maybe it's just too late, I've got to get away when everything feels the same, I've got to get away tell
Me it's not too late
On and on and on you wait and oh the days they fade away and all the nights they've never felt
The same if I was wrong then I was wrong and on and on and on and on the things we do are never going to change well you
Haven't got a lot to say"
"I'm the last real thing you've got
oh if I'm not tortured how are you ever going to relate I've
Been condemed by those I love, wishing me the worst as I'm trying my best
close your eyes and cover, cover your ears, for the end is near but the
Beginning is here
there's nothing to lose when there's nothing to
Hold"
The Format has all the words I need today. I got a letter from Richard last night. It's not bad, but it's not good either... I want to fly up there and talk to him face to face. but I can't...
I don't know what it means. I don't know what I'm going to do.
for once... I'm at a loss for words...
this is pure emotion, that is, strictly emotion, for the emotion is not pure. a wild mixture of regret, despair, misery, thrill, pain, confusion, and a shard of happiness so crystal-bright it hurts. all I really want to do is tell people and cry. I don't want to write back right away because I'm too afraid of what I might say. I never have been all that great at expressing myself, and letters to him are especially hard now because I have no idea exactly what tone to strike. I want to talk to him... just talk things out where I can backtrack and say never mind and really sort things out.
I'm so scared.
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"I can't stand to think about a heart so big it hurts like hell
Oh my God I gave my best but for three whole years to end like this
Well do you want to fall apart? I can't stop if you can't start
Do you want to fall apart? I could if you can try to fix what I've undone
Cause I hate what I've become
You know me, oh you think you do you just don't seem to see
I've been waiting all this time to be, something I can't define
So let's cause a scene, clap our hands and stomp our feet or something,
yeah something I've just got to get myself over me
I could stand to do without, all the people I have left behind
What's the point in going around when it's a straight line baby, a straight line down
So let's make a list of who we need and we'll throw it away
'Cause we don't need anyone, no we don't need anyone
You know me, oh you think you do you just don't seem to see
I've been waiting all this time to be, something I can't define
So let's cause a scene, clap our hands and stomp our feet or something,
yeah something I've just got to get myself over me
And I hate what I've become.
You know the night life is just not for me
'Cause all you really need are a few good friends
I don't want to go out and be on my own,
You know they started something I can't stand
You leave for the city,
Well count me out
'Cause all this time is wasted on everything I've done"
"Don't make a sound cause the song won't stop till the tape runs out when melody has nothing to hold,
I'll be the last sound that you hear as your eyes close and these chords remain
We'll use them to exploit the friends we've since forgot those friends we've lost you
All know just who you are cause I've since made graves but I'm too scared to etch the names
For fear that I'm the one who's changed
The thought of death it scares me to death and I dont know why,
I don't know it's just too much to never wake up"
"Goddamn i wish him the best we were kids back then as if we could progress but sometimes I just can't sleep, thinking of
Everything we could have been"
"It's killing me to see you
Just tie the rope and kick the chair
Leave me hanging there, gasping for air
Yeah, don't mind me three feet from the ceiling
You'd rather watch me drown,
Then see your hands get wet
You took the plot from stage to screen
And turned it to an epic scene
So whisper it once, tell me again,
C'mon, whisper it twice,
I cant stand to see my whole life flash before my eyes
When I'm with you there's no point in breathing,
No point in breathing
Just tie the rope and kick the chair
Leave me hanging there, gasping for air
Yeah, don't mind me three feet from the ceiling
And I think I know (whoah oh oh)
Why you never get to close
It's cause you're too scared to
When I'm with you
There's no point in breathing
So so you run
Away for no apparent reason
'Cause you and I are changing with the seasons
Don't give me an answer as to why you're leaving
The tables are full but nobody's been dealing
So fold your hand, c'mon, and fold your hand"
"let's just see who's
Up on this screen no one I know is more depressing then me or should I say the two of us cause after all we're all we've got
And tension speaks but we're singing it
haven't we heard this song about a thousand times before oh well after
Awhile it all sounds the same I guess it's better than silence and better than shame"
"cause theres no love like apathy
I'm trying to find truth in words, in rhymes, in notes, in all the things I wish I'd wrote cause I feel like I've been losing you
I read your last entry
you don't hold me like you used to and your eyes look like they've seen
Too much
you should have seen the looks I just received I need a reason to let go an
Intervention, a lullaby something to cure me please believe me"
"come the morning I'll be gone and as our eyes start to close I turn to you and I let you know that I
Love you
I ran, I couldn't even
Look at him for fear I'd have to say goodbye and as I start to leave he grabs me by the shoulder and he tells me what's left
To lose, you've done enough and if you fail well then you fail but not to us cause these last three years, I know they've been
Hard but now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if it's alone
that's the way it's been, ever since we were kids but now, now we've got
Something to prove and I, I can see their eyes but tell me something, can they see mine cause what's left to lose, I've done
Enough and if I fail well then I fail but I gave it a shot and these last three years, I know they've been hard but now it's
Time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if it's alone"
"Forgive me you cut out again, it seems so easy just to blame the reception but there's something wrong and I don't know why
Why you, you never say goodbye so please just leave, you don't mean that much to me you keep the ring, I'll take those
Saturdays in bed cause I know you need them as for me it's nothing new just another two years I wish we'd always wake up new,
Refreshed and born again with nothing left to lose but we dream too much and who needs a crutch pull off the bandage, there's
No wound so please just leave, you don't mean that much to me give back the ring, keep all those summers with your friends
Cause you know you need them as for me it's nothing new just another two years that I'm here losing sleep your sore thumb,
Your best defense is miles from home oh and it reads like a letter, with the words all broken erased them with a razorblade
Cause you're gone I was lost then I found you but I'm breaking down now"
"In a dream that I can't seem to shake she is, she is standing alone by the fence I see tears in her eyes why she crys I just
Don't know what a mess that I make of my days then there's you, you're a mess to be made, a mess to be made and the dream
Starts to fade away so you're leaving for months at a time, I help you out the door but once you're gone I just stare out the
Window please, could you please come back home what a mess that I make of my days trying to save myself, save myself then
There's you, you're a mess to be made a canvas only paint could change and a voice on the other end of the phone, says why
Don't you write a song about it well here goes, I was raised on something that you'll never know I'd hate this place if it
Weren't for the waves if it weren't for the fact that you love it where they measure a man on the money he spends well my love
Is not a bank statement what a mess that I make of my days trying to save myself, save myself then there's you, you're a mess
To be made, a mess to be made, a mess to be made and the dream starts to fade away"
"I know you're left
Behind but I'll do my best to feel broke down it's been a minute, a second, I'll wait for you to make a sound but I know, I
Know you're taking time maybe it's just too late, I've got to get away when everything feels the same, I've got to get away tell
Me it's not too late
On and on and on you wait and oh the days they fade away and all the nights they've never felt
The same if I was wrong then I was wrong and on and on and on and on the things we do are never going to change well you
Haven't got a lot to say"
"I'm the last real thing you've got
oh if I'm not tortured how are you ever going to relate I've
Been condemed by those I love, wishing me the worst as I'm trying my best
close your eyes and cover, cover your ears, for the end is near but the
Beginning is here
there's nothing to lose when there's nothing to
Hold"
The Format has all the words I need today. I got a letter from Richard last night. It's not bad, but it's not good either... I want to fly up there and talk to him face to face. but I can't...
I don't know what it means. I don't know what I'm going to do.
for once... I'm at a loss for words...
this is pure emotion, that is, strictly emotion, for the emotion is not pure. a wild mixture of regret, despair, misery, thrill, pain, confusion, and a shard of happiness so crystal-bright it hurts. all I really want to do is tell people and cry. I don't want to write back right away because I'm too afraid of what I might say. I never have been all that great at expressing myself, and letters to him are especially hard now because I have no idea exactly what tone to strike. I want to talk to him... just talk things out where I can backtrack and say never mind and really sort things out.
I'm so scared.
=^.^=