(no subject)
i don't really know what to say to you
fuck you
my whole life you have been completely different every day
one day you love me
the next, you want to kill me
i've put up with it for 16 years
your the reason why my family is torn into shreds
you care about one person
and this person is so completely out of her mind
i almost think she doesn't deserve to live
you don't deserve your children
and you told me you would kill yourself
and them
before you would let them be taken away
and then you say they are the only things you care about
you don't make sense to me
or to yourself
or anyone else
i want you to realize this
or just fucking die
i want you out of my life
i'm trying so hard
to fix the things wrong in my life
and tonight you come and try to pull me down to your level
i've come to realize that to hate and to resent won't help anything
and that is all you know how to do
for some reason you want me in your life
and you keep fucking mine up
i have enough power to take everything you have away
and you keep taking everything from me
and now i'm going to take everything from you
then maybe you'll realize what you've done to me
and now, its too late for you to say your sorry
i've heard it from you so many times
. . . i'll never have to here it again