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In Orgo Lab today I had an awful realization. I can't remember what it was and I hope I remember it. It was very important. I realized it as my goggles were pressed against the eyepiece for the melting point apparatus. I think it was really important. I think it had to do with my relationship with science. Hm. Something about how I am spending so many minutes staring at Erlenmeyer flasks, waiting for precipitate, while other people are reading books and watching movies and finding some sort of philosophical or self-fulfillment. Well, at least my precipitate formed and actually looked like grass was growing in the flask (cloudy white grass)! and at least my IR spectroscopy data showed that my product was mostly pure! and at least I received a good grade on my last write up! I think the part that frightened me while I was staring at my little capillary tube was that I enjoyed staring at that capillary tube anticipating the formation of the first droplet. Then I realized that in some ways I feel lazy for choosing science. I want to stretch my brain more creatively, I don't want to dully stare at something. I guess what I'm staring at is awfully cool in some ways though. Oh, to find moderation between objectivity and subjectivity somewhere in the world.