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[_dinker_]

Well I didn't like how tonight ended. I called colby on my way to work and ya know, things were cool. I told him I wanted to see him tonight! I hardly ever see him anymore and yeah. Well he ended up being sorta shitty and I got mad and then i tried talking to him and he was making me feel like an idiot. Sometimes I feel like I make stuff up in my head and wonder why the hell I feel like that then. Anyway he didn't even say bye, he got in the car and I'm not gonna see him for a couple days because he's going to bear lake tomorrow to Saturday, and I'm going to flowell to sunday or something... And I got this new job. I'm a CNA. It fucking sucks. I suck at it and I just feel so uncomfortable and overwhelmed but it's a full time job and I need the money and I need to move into my own place. And things are just so different right now. I feel like I'm growing up and I don't want to. I was just fine with my training table job and my friends there and doing my every day thing. But unfortunately, training table can't support me like I need it to so yep. Hopefully I can get morning shifts. I talked to her (Lis, the boss lady) this morning and she said she needs afternoon right now but as soon as she has a morning spot, she'd move me to that. I hope soon. I'd love to stay at the Training Table. Plus, the morning shift would just be sooo much better. It's 6-2 and the afternoon is 2-10. I hate it. I'm there until like 10:30. And the day is pretty much gone. I wake up, go to work. I don't like that one bit. I gotta do what I gotta do right now though. I'm going to flowell tomorrow night. I'm reallly excited. I haven't seen kinzie girl forever man. I miss her guts like crazy. And were going boating and Aubri's going with and were gonna drive down there, just me and her. It's gonna be awesome. I love aubri. She is my sister and my family now. She kicks some sweet ass. We've been looking at apartments and her mom mentioned that she might be buying a condo and would want to rent it out to us so I would love that way way more than an apartment. I hope that works out, I really do! I wished Colby would of given me a hug goodbye. I just don't get him. Im sure he doesn't get me sometimes ether. I dunno what's wrong with us. I wished things wern't so difficult and it seems they are. How do you fix that?
Well anyways, I'm actually pooped so I'm gonna go say gnight to my bunny and then jump in bed. Nighty night.