how a piano, a violin and the breakbeat genre will finally send me over the edge...
feel quite depressed this morning, and i've had my actimel. crikey.
it started when i woke up to the ringing of my mobile, it was kat, we discussed the footy tonight, arranged to meet in the pub and said i'd catch her later. i'd remembered the last parts of my dream before i was woken up, i can't remember how i got there (obviously), but i was on a busand there was this woman infront of me who was getting off at the same stop as me, she turned to me and said;
"you don't look too healthy yourself love"
i had said nothing to her before. she just turned around and said it.
couple that with simons nan's comments on my weight last night just made me feel so horrible, and all you can do is agree, nod, and say how your appetite is not much different from other people, things are going to change etc etc. but you know they never will, until you feel better to do something about it.
both comments seemed totally out of the blue, and they both made me feel terrible.
i don't know what it's like being fat, i can't see it as being very pleasent for the person who believes they are, but i always thought they could take comfort in only being ridiculed if they were hurled some abuse in the street by some inbred and not socially, nothing offbeat and in the middle of a 'normal' conversation over a dinner table. ARGH, HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU PEOPLE DO THAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
social comments about being overweight aren't tolerated anymore. you got adverts day, noon and night about losing weight, lemme ask yah, you see any about putting weight on ?
i see being skinny as so much worse than being fat, simply for the fact that people don't point you out as being fat in a social situation anymore, it's just plain rude, a big no no in a social circle right ? but people will point you out for being skinny at the first opportunity and will often not think twice about what they've just said. no i'm not saying being fat is 'easier', i can imagine it's not, but i see more outlets from being overweight than i do being underweight.
the only even slightest laugh i'll get outta this is seeing weight as fashion. being fat is so last year............skinny is the new black.
jesus...
i feel really bad. just comforting with sting and eva, my shrinks.
it started when i woke up to the ringing of my mobile, it was kat, we discussed the footy tonight, arranged to meet in the pub and said i'd catch her later. i'd remembered the last parts of my dream before i was woken up, i can't remember how i got there (obviously), but i was on a busand there was this woman infront of me who was getting off at the same stop as me, she turned to me and said;
"you don't look too healthy yourself love"
i had said nothing to her before. she just turned around and said it.
couple that with simons nan's comments on my weight last night just made me feel so horrible, and all you can do is agree, nod, and say how your appetite is not much different from other people, things are going to change etc etc. but you know they never will, until you feel better to do something about it.
both comments seemed totally out of the blue, and they both made me feel terrible.
i don't know what it's like being fat, i can't see it as being very pleasent for the person who believes they are, but i always thought they could take comfort in only being ridiculed if they were hurled some abuse in the street by some inbred and not socially, nothing offbeat and in the middle of a 'normal' conversation over a dinner table. ARGH, HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU PEOPLE DO THAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
social comments about being overweight aren't tolerated anymore. you got adverts day, noon and night about losing weight, lemme ask yah, you see any about putting weight on ?
i see being skinny as so much worse than being fat, simply for the fact that people don't point you out as being fat in a social situation anymore, it's just plain rude, a big no no in a social circle right ? but people will point you out for being skinny at the first opportunity and will often not think twice about what they've just said. no i'm not saying being fat is 'easier', i can imagine it's not, but i see more outlets from being overweight than i do being underweight.
the only even slightest laugh i'll get outta this is seeing weight as fashion. being fat is so last year............skinny is the new black.
jesus...
i feel really bad. just comforting with sting and eva, my shrinks.