Almost there.
Well I am officially living out of James's apartment now. I am staying with a friend til the end of the month when my momma flies down here to come get me. I cannot tell you how relieved I felt the first night I slept away from James and the apartment, an overwhelming sense of calmness was finally at hand. Its almost over. I cant wait either.
The only thing left to do is pack the last box of shit at James's and ship it all back to MI, and this will be happening this Saturday. I am thankful tho that James and I are on better terms with this whole situation, like old friends again. He also agreed to help me with taking/shipping my boxes back to MI, thank god because they are too 'effin heavy for me to carry down 3 flights of stairs by myself. Right now I feel "fine" about this whole thing, like yeah its ok that it didnt work out.. but I so know that when it comes time to leave/say goodbye to all this and him on Saturday, im gonna cry like a motherfucker. But, like I said before, I am relieved that this will be all over soon and I will never have to talk to James again afterwards.
This is one time in my life when I truly do need to omit someone out of it for good, for what they did to me and how they made me feel. These last couple of months have been the hardest months emotionally and stressfully Ive ever had to deal with in my life, and Im sorry, but why should I bother keeping contact with someone who made me feel that way. For any of you who read this, just think back to one of your most painful break-ups, the hardships you went thru, etc. What did you do to ease the pain??
I have plans and a dream to follow after a I leave and go back to MI, and I dont need thoughts of him sitting in the back of mind.
The only thing left to do is pack the last box of shit at James's and ship it all back to MI, and this will be happening this Saturday. I am thankful tho that James and I are on better terms with this whole situation, like old friends again. He also agreed to help me with taking/shipping my boxes back to MI, thank god because they are too 'effin heavy for me to carry down 3 flights of stairs by myself. Right now I feel "fine" about this whole thing, like yeah its ok that it didnt work out.. but I so know that when it comes time to leave/say goodbye to all this and him on Saturday, im gonna cry like a motherfucker. But, like I said before, I am relieved that this will be all over soon and I will never have to talk to James again afterwards.
This is one time in my life when I truly do need to omit someone out of it for good, for what they did to me and how they made me feel. These last couple of months have been the hardest months emotionally and stressfully Ive ever had to deal with in my life, and Im sorry, but why should I bother keeping contact with someone who made me feel that way. For any of you who read this, just think back to one of your most painful break-ups, the hardships you went thru, etc. What did you do to ease the pain??
I have plans and a dream to follow after a I leave and go back to MI, and I dont need thoughts of him sitting in the back of mind.