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for a while now, ive been paying a lot more attention to peoples words and actions. most of the people i thought i loved so much have turned out to be completely different people than i thought they were. i don't know if they have always been like that and i just never realized it, or if they're changing. it hurts to think about though. most of these people who i have thought were such loving and caring people are really self-centered and ignorant. but of course, me being who i am, i'll keep my mouth shut about it and keep my thoughts to myself and just pretend like everything is fine.
hah. sometimes i wish i wasn't so afraid of confrontation. there are just things about people that really get to me. i don't expect to ever have a perfect friendship where the person and i are just 100% fine with eachother, but i wish i could be open about the problems i have. hah. there have only been two people in my life that i have ever been completely honest with... eric and matt, but i guess i should just say one since the only times i fessed up to eric about how shitty he made me feel was when i was drunk. so matt is the only person im really honest with. ///sigh. i really wish i wasn't such a coward.
okay. i think im just going to be honest here. no names will be mentioned. it will be like what i wrote in a myspace blog a while back about how i felt about most of you, but instead of good things, it will be bad...well, some good too i guess.. no names will be mentioned, you'll just have to guess which is about you.
♥ i think you are too sensitive. with you, i feel as though i always have to put on somewhat of an act because im too afraid of hurting your feelings. you are such a wonderful and amazing person, but you need to learn to laugh at yourself. if someone makes a joke to you, don't take it seriously.
♥ you think too highly of yourself. yes, you are conceited. it is not just confidence, you have taken it beyond that point. you can come off as such an amazing person, which i think you are, but when you show this side... you just make me angry. take yourself off the pedistool you've made for yourself and im pretty sure you'll notice a dramatic change in your life. oh. and please, lay off the drama.
♥ you have the most amazing personality, but lately... you've ben acting like the type of person i've always hated. you were always such a loving person, but now your treating everyone like garbage. you may not realize it now, but your making people feel horrible. i just hope that you'll notice it soon and i really hope you know this, your actions have consequences.
♥ you are the most depressing person to be around or talk with. you were one of the very few people ive ever gotten really close with so we've always been pretty open with eachother, but you've taken things too far and now all you do is complain. i rarely hear anything good come from your mouth. i try my hardest to make you happy and help you, but it is hard when all you do is make me feel bad.
♥ you use me. your my friend, but im not yours... unless you want something. your only in my life when your getting something out of it. your only around when you want. sweetie, thats not being a friend. that is you being selfish.
and there are two people who really deserve something good said about them,
♥ you make me feel better about myself. no matter what mood im in, something as simple as you saying hi to me cheers me up. your my best friend. you are the only one for me. you are absolutely wonderful.
♥ you make me feel like brad pitt. if you read this, the brad pitt comment won't make any sense to you, but someday i'll explain. i barely know you, but you make me giggle and you make swedish fish even more amazing. and really, despite the fact that we barely know eachother, your special to me.
okay. im done. and i want all of you to know, that despite how im feeling towards you right now, i only wrote this because i do love you and rather than letting these problems drag on, im writing it out so things can be fixed. ♥
hah. sometimes i wish i wasn't so afraid of confrontation. there are just things about people that really get to me. i don't expect to ever have a perfect friendship where the person and i are just 100% fine with eachother, but i wish i could be open about the problems i have. hah. there have only been two people in my life that i have ever been completely honest with... eric and matt, but i guess i should just say one since the only times i fessed up to eric about how shitty he made me feel was when i was drunk. so matt is the only person im really honest with. ///sigh. i really wish i wasn't such a coward.
okay. i think im just going to be honest here. no names will be mentioned. it will be like what i wrote in a myspace blog a while back about how i felt about most of you, but instead of good things, it will be bad...well, some good too i guess.. no names will be mentioned, you'll just have to guess which is about you.
♥ i think you are too sensitive. with you, i feel as though i always have to put on somewhat of an act because im too afraid of hurting your feelings. you are such a wonderful and amazing person, but you need to learn to laugh at yourself. if someone makes a joke to you, don't take it seriously.
♥ you think too highly of yourself. yes, you are conceited. it is not just confidence, you have taken it beyond that point. you can come off as such an amazing person, which i think you are, but when you show this side... you just make me angry. take yourself off the pedistool you've made for yourself and im pretty sure you'll notice a dramatic change in your life. oh. and please, lay off the drama.
♥ you have the most amazing personality, but lately... you've ben acting like the type of person i've always hated. you were always such a loving person, but now your treating everyone like garbage. you may not realize it now, but your making people feel horrible. i just hope that you'll notice it soon and i really hope you know this, your actions have consequences.
♥ you are the most depressing person to be around or talk with. you were one of the very few people ive ever gotten really close with so we've always been pretty open with eachother, but you've taken things too far and now all you do is complain. i rarely hear anything good come from your mouth. i try my hardest to make you happy and help you, but it is hard when all you do is make me feel bad.
♥ you use me. your my friend, but im not yours... unless you want something. your only in my life when your getting something out of it. your only around when you want. sweetie, thats not being a friend. that is you being selfish.
and there are two people who really deserve something good said about them,
♥ you make me feel better about myself. no matter what mood im in, something as simple as you saying hi to me cheers me up. your my best friend. you are the only one for me. you are absolutely wonderful.
♥ you make me feel like brad pitt. if you read this, the brad pitt comment won't make any sense to you, but someday i'll explain. i barely know you, but you make me giggle and you make swedish fish even more amazing. and really, despite the fact that we barely know eachother, your special to me.
okay. im done. and i want all of you to know, that despite how im feeling towards you right now, i only wrote this because i do love you and rather than letting these problems drag on, im writing it out so things can be fixed. ♥