its lifes little let down, spontenaity
so ive been in the strangest moods lately. ive probably felt every possible feeling imaginable within the past couple days, but right now im pretty happy with things.
before, i always had this void in my life. i never knew what it was or why it was there, but i felt it. i always figured that it was because i had a mediocre life which has always made me angry since i don't consider myself a mediocre kind of person. but as i was thinking today, i realized my life is far from mediocre. sure, i don't do anything too amazing and from an outsiders point of view, my life probably does seem plain, but its not. its not because of the people i have in my life. they are so amazing and eek, i can't even put it into words. i am crazily in love, i have the greatest bffe anyone could ever ask for, and then very few but very amazing GOOD friends. oh. and not to mention the cutest most loving family, ever. ♥ not many people can say that they have those things and i know that nobody else has the same people i have, so my life is special. after realizing this, the blank spot in my life that i was feeling just disappeared. absolute bliss.
blah. so i went to sleep really early. like midnight. and then i woke up around 2. and ive been awake since. but now im really super tired. the problem is, i have to be awake in an hour. ugh. i suck for not being able to sleep. so tired. not cool.
oh. && most of you probably didn't even try calling me, but joe mentioned that he tried calling me so i figure it's worth mentioning. i lost my phone and so it was off for quite a while. hah. im turning into matt, losing my phone and what not.
eek. speaking of him. only like a week. ah! love love love.
i think im going to try and sleep for the next hour.
oh. and, i don't know how many of you will read this before then, but im going to be by shasta for lunch. those of you who normally have lunch with me, ill be at the usual spot across the street, so meet me there. ♥
before, i always had this void in my life. i never knew what it was or why it was there, but i felt it. i always figured that it was because i had a mediocre life which has always made me angry since i don't consider myself a mediocre kind of person. but as i was thinking today, i realized my life is far from mediocre. sure, i don't do anything too amazing and from an outsiders point of view, my life probably does seem plain, but its not. its not because of the people i have in my life. they are so amazing and eek, i can't even put it into words. i am crazily in love, i have the greatest bffe anyone could ever ask for, and then very few but very amazing GOOD friends. oh. and not to mention the cutest most loving family, ever. ♥ not many people can say that they have those things and i know that nobody else has the same people i have, so my life is special. after realizing this, the blank spot in my life that i was feeling just disappeared. absolute bliss.
blah. so i went to sleep really early. like midnight. and then i woke up around 2. and ive been awake since. but now im really super tired. the problem is, i have to be awake in an hour. ugh. i suck for not being able to sleep. so tired. not cool.
oh. && most of you probably didn't even try calling me, but joe mentioned that he tried calling me so i figure it's worth mentioning. i lost my phone and so it was off for quite a while. hah. im turning into matt, losing my phone and what not.
eek. speaking of him. only like a week. ah! love love love.
i think im going to try and sleep for the next hour.
oh. and, i don't know how many of you will read this before then, but im going to be by shasta for lunch. those of you who normally have lunch with me, ill be at the usual spot across the street, so meet me there. ♥