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[_cryptic_soul_]

I lie awake at night
on my bedroom floor
wondering what it would be like
if i could not live anymore
staring at my ceiling
at the artificial sky
quoting my thoughts
wanting to die
what would it be like?
would it have to be that way?
oh god, i don't care
i just don't want to stay
monism, dualism, either way im fucked
shoulda been a better daughter, sister
a better friend, student, a better girl
..it scares the hell out of me
but the end is all i can see
-Muse 'thoughts of a dying athiest'
ahtiest? not really.
ruled by secrecy.
destroyed by secrecy.
doomed to fail, never succeed
its all tainted, the water will never run clear
the wine will never taste fresh
best, you've got to be the best
the
time
is
now