just weepy
I feel like today is supposed to be rainy because i feel ... rainy? I don't know. This week has been nuts. Like, such a roller coaster. Friday i hung out with sam and kaile and it made me kinda homesick, missing my girls manya and katie even though i know they are doing so well. I have been counting down to tomorrow because i was so looking forward to seeing jason, who was supposed to come tomorrow night. Over the weekend sam and i went to party at joannas and really had a blast despite all the craziness of the evening. We basically had to put these girls into their place, because why would you go to somebody else's party that you don't even know and completely disrespect them and get them into trouble with their neighbors? it was so retarded. but we had a blast anyway, we all went back to my room after the party got broken up and just had a really awesome time. I went to a haunted house on friday with my new friend ethan and his cousin heather and it was totally cheesy but so fun because of it. but anyway on to the real reason for my entry, i called my house yesterday and found out that my aunt esther died. ohhhh maaaan. You guys, she was the sweetest lady you could have met and i am going ot miss her so much. and now my grandmother is sick. They lived together pretty much and so i am sure she is devastated. THe thing that i hate the most is that i didn't even get to say goodbye to her. They wouldn't let me in to see her these past 3 or 4 weeks because i had mono, and an infection. so the last time i saw her i said, i'll see you next week, but then it didnt happen and now it wont. But i'm sure she understands, the best part is that she absolutely knew how much we all loved her, and now she's with her husband whom she was very in love with. I just wish i could have said goodbye. And also, now Jason is not coming up to visit anymore. but the good thing about things being so low is that they really can only get better from here. but what awkward timing. I am going to nashua today to watch the sox game and hopefully get cheered up. We'll see. Next there is the wake and then the funeral. i just hope i can really be there for my mom and dad and cheer them up. i have good memories. anyways, everyone say a prayer for esther she was one heck of a lady. i hope that when i grow old i am half as chill as she was. I am really confused, and overwhelmed and all over the place today. I was writing to try and clear my head but it doesn't look like its going to happen so i think i'll head to the gym. I really really hope that EVERYONE is having a fabulous, productive, successful, safe and amazing semester thus far and that everything is positive and happy and chill. x o x o JennyQ