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before i become an ash that falls into the dark shadows and never seen again i hope i'm an ember that will glow for a long time. long enough to be satisfied. long enough to do what i want. this only happens once so it might as well be the best it can possibly be. live without regrets and just accept what will happen. europe is here and waiting to be explored. the so called life changing events should be around the corner. i have no expectations. but is that just to make myself feel better so i won't be disappointed in myself? i hope not. i hope this is exactly what i need at this stage and i believe the only way to know this is to live it here in the moment. to be able to tell them later it was what should have happened at that point in time. it was not what was expected nor what was wanted, it was just what was right. that's what i'm looking for.