Almost a year later...
Well... Lots is different now.
Ashley and I moved in together. I moved out, she tried to kill herself... we are no longer friends. Her choice, not mine.
I have a new job, working for Telstra. I take calls, nd recently was made Quality Assurance rep in my team, which means I log off the phones when someone needs help and I help them.
Currently doing 10 hr days, 4 days a week.
Well, the only other major thing is, Addicted to Neurofen plus, my dosage is at about 50/60 pills a day. Any day now I'm expecting my skin to turn yellow from the amount of paracetamol in my liver. Started with my
Days where I didn't take it, I would get what I called the 'neurofen headache', which just compelled me to take more. And now, listening to
customers yelling at me all day... being in a cocoon of numbness, just makes it
easier.
And watching Ashley walk down the road she'd watched me walk...(panadol and normal neurofen overdose, my liver is akin to that of a 70 year old's.), felt like it was killing me.
So I started taking it to help me sleep. If my stomach hurt, I bought other
drugs to kill it, because I couldn't deal without it.
I'm constantly broke. I have about 20 pharmacy's that I go to, rotating them
around so that they don't know.
But it has to stop... I worked it out, and I spend almost $200 a week on this.
So, today is day two of detox. The pain isn't as bad as yesterday, except for my
headache. I haven't been able to eat anything though, I dry retch everytime I
try. Even water's hard.
I'm doing this because... Setting things down helps me. And the idea that I'm
not the only one addicted to something that I thought was so harmless...
I think that's enough for now.
Ashley and I moved in together. I moved out, she tried to kill herself... we are no longer friends. Her choice, not mine.
I have a new job, working for Telstra. I take calls, nd recently was made Quality Assurance rep in my team, which means I log off the phones when someone needs help and I help them.
Currently doing 10 hr days, 4 days a week.
Well, the only other major thing is, Addicted to Neurofen plus, my dosage is at about 50/60 pills a day. Any day now I'm expecting my skin to turn yellow from the amount of paracetamol in my liver. Started with my
Days where I didn't take it, I would get what I called the 'neurofen headache', which just compelled me to take more. And now, listening to
customers yelling at me all day... being in a cocoon of numbness, just makes it
easier.
And watching Ashley walk down the road she'd watched me walk...(panadol and normal neurofen overdose, my liver is akin to that of a 70 year old's.), felt like it was killing me.
So I started taking it to help me sleep. If my stomach hurt, I bought other
drugs to kill it, because I couldn't deal without it.
I'm constantly broke. I have about 20 pharmacy's that I go to, rotating them
around so that they don't know.
But it has to stop... I worked it out, and I spend almost $200 a week on this.
So, today is day two of detox. The pain isn't as bad as yesterday, except for my
headache. I haven't been able to eat anything though, I dry retch everytime I
try. Even water's hard.
I'm doing this because... Setting things down helps me. And the idea that I'm
not the only one addicted to something that I thought was so harmless...
I think that's enough for now.