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*This is what I was going to write yesterday, but I never got the chance to put it in my lj till today.
Well yesterday I called up Robert and talked to him we talked for a little while. I mentioned to him how hurt I was about what happened on Saturday. I asked him if he meant anything by it and he told me that's just how he was feeling then. So I felt a little better after hearing that from him. Then today I called him up at lunch to see about getting together to hang out at lunch and he told me he wanted to go out driving. So I said alright then I’ll just call you later. When I came home today, I went on the computer so I could check my e-mails and Robert was online, so I said hi and within a minute of saying hi to him, he got offline. Yeah it could have been his computer fucking up but if that was the case he would have called me or got back online.
So again I’m back to being confused about everything right now just like Saturday and I’m so scared that things are going to end between us. I couldn’t imagine how I would be with out him, I’ve become so close with him (like we always were before) and I can’t stand the thought of even thinking that we could break up. I know were strong and I know that relationships have hard times that come up, that's what I believe this is that Robert and I are experiencing-just a rough time.
I seen him today at the mall though for a few minutes, his mom was at work and pointed over to where Robert was sitting, and so we said hi and talked for a few seconds before he had to go. He’s like “well at least I got to see your for a minute, anyways“. So in a way I guess that reassured me that things should be okay, but I’m still worried, cause I get like that. Why I have no idea I just get so worked up when things don’t seem like they are going right, and I really can’t help it. Its just the fact that you know it if something doesn’t feel right, you just get that really crappy feeling that comes over you, and you almost feel like you can’t get rid of it.
No matter what I do
Everything in my mind is about you
I know I shouldn’t get so worried
But I’m so afraid to lose you
You’re my everything, my rock
You give me strength when I feel week
You help me find the words when I cannot speak
You’re the one who makes me love each and everyday
But what I wish for is that you will stay
I need you by my side
To make everything feel alright
There’s not a thing I wouldn’t do
To make you know that I love everything about you.
If you decide to let me go
Let me go quickly so the pain won’t hurt as bad
Either way I will still feel that you’re the best thing I’ve ever had.
XoXo
Well yesterday I called up Robert and talked to him we talked for a little while. I mentioned to him how hurt I was about what happened on Saturday. I asked him if he meant anything by it and he told me that's just how he was feeling then. So I felt a little better after hearing that from him. Then today I called him up at lunch to see about getting together to hang out at lunch and he told me he wanted to go out driving. So I said alright then I’ll just call you later. When I came home today, I went on the computer so I could check my e-mails and Robert was online, so I said hi and within a minute of saying hi to him, he got offline. Yeah it could have been his computer fucking up but if that was the case he would have called me or got back online.
So again I’m back to being confused about everything right now just like Saturday and I’m so scared that things are going to end between us. I couldn’t imagine how I would be with out him, I’ve become so close with him (like we always were before) and I can’t stand the thought of even thinking that we could break up. I know were strong and I know that relationships have hard times that come up, that's what I believe this is that Robert and I are experiencing-just a rough time.
I seen him today at the mall though for a few minutes, his mom was at work and pointed over to where Robert was sitting, and so we said hi and talked for a few seconds before he had to go. He’s like “well at least I got to see your for a minute, anyways“. So in a way I guess that reassured me that things should be okay, but I’m still worried, cause I get like that. Why I have no idea I just get so worked up when things don’t seem like they are going right, and I really can’t help it. Its just the fact that you know it if something doesn’t feel right, you just get that really crappy feeling that comes over you, and you almost feel like you can’t get rid of it.
No matter what I do
Everything in my mind is about you
I know I shouldn’t get so worried
But I’m so afraid to lose you
You’re my everything, my rock
You give me strength when I feel week
You help me find the words when I cannot speak
You’re the one who makes me love each and everyday
But what I wish for is that you will stay
I need you by my side
To make everything feel alright
There’s not a thing I wouldn’t do
To make you know that I love everything about you.
If you decide to let me go
Let me go quickly so the pain won’t hurt as bad
Either way I will still feel that you’re the best thing I’ve ever had.
XoXo