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So its been eight days since i last wrote in here... and I've had way to much on my mind, that I've been in some strange moods lately. Exams are coming up, which is also another thing to worry about... gotta love those exams eh?? (*sigh*) I've been thinkin about this guy so much... Maybe you know who you are, it sure would be a whole lot easier if you did know. I miss you so much and wish there was some way to tell you how i feel.... but even if i did tell you it wouldn't matter. Your so happy the way things are, and thats the way i love to see you - when you've got a smile on your face, and when your laughing and having a good time. I wouldn't change that for the world, but if i could be the one with you again there would be not one second i'd have to think about.
You know i think of you all the time, the way you treated me was amazing. Every song i hear reminds me of you, and i always think of the way i felt when you'd hold me in your arms... safe. Love to look at the pictures of us... makes me feel better, even tho sometimes i feel like i could cry so hard because i miss you so much.
So.. My best buddy ended up asking me out a few weeks ago, and i didn't know what to do. The last thing i ever wanted to do was hurt him and make him think that i didn't care about him at all. You know who you are, and if your reading this your someone so special to me. Your one of my best friends and i'd hate for that to change because i know what we have is a strong solid friendship, I don't know what i'd do with out it. Thats how i think of us together - Best Buds nothing more. I hate feeling the way i do right now.. Its just not right. I need to escape and get out of this mess i feel like i'm in.
You know i think of you all the time, the way you treated me was amazing. Every song i hear reminds me of you, and i always think of the way i felt when you'd hold me in your arms... safe. Love to look at the pictures of us... makes me feel better, even tho sometimes i feel like i could cry so hard because i miss you so much.
So.. My best buddy ended up asking me out a few weeks ago, and i didn't know what to do. The last thing i ever wanted to do was hurt him and make him think that i didn't care about him at all. You know who you are, and if your reading this your someone so special to me. Your one of my best friends and i'd hate for that to change because i know what we have is a strong solid friendship, I don't know what i'd do with out it. Thats how i think of us together - Best Buds nothing more. I hate feeling the way i do right now.. Its just not right. I need to escape and get out of this mess i feel like i'm in.