Musings of a Lost Human
I absolutely detest break ups.
At this moment, I absolutely detest relationships and myself for screwing things up the way that I always do. I am a complete idiot.
I also feel that things are going to be terrible, for a good while anyway. This is going to be a truly awful summer. I am a truly awful person for the things I've done, and for how I've made the men in my life feel. I don't intend on going into detail about this, as it really is of no concern to anyone except me and the other halves, but I hate life's intricacies. I hate the choices I chose to make, and the ones I didn't make. I have no explanation for them, I can't explain how I felt at the time, or how I feel now about them.
I just know that at this very moment, at this full peak of the realization of the things I've done and the things I chose not to do, the awful things are much more apparent than anything I've done in my life that has been good.
I've also noticed because of the choices I make, exes and I can never be friends. I am a moron, and they deserve much better than me.
So really now, I can only say this through the words of Missy Higgins.
"Where I Stood"
I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood
So long and good night, readers.
At this moment, I absolutely detest relationships and myself for screwing things up the way that I always do. I am a complete idiot.
I also feel that things are going to be terrible, for a good while anyway. This is going to be a truly awful summer. I am a truly awful person for the things I've done, and for how I've made the men in my life feel. I don't intend on going into detail about this, as it really is of no concern to anyone except me and the other halves, but I hate life's intricacies. I hate the choices I chose to make, and the ones I didn't make. I have no explanation for them, I can't explain how I felt at the time, or how I feel now about them.
I just know that at this very moment, at this full peak of the realization of the things I've done and the things I chose not to do, the awful things are much more apparent than anything I've done in my life that has been good.
I've also noticed because of the choices I make, exes and I can never be friends. I am a moron, and they deserve much better than me.
So really now, I can only say this through the words of Missy Higgins.
"Where I Stood"
I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood
So long and good night, readers.