everything will go right all in good time
i couldn't remember the password or my username since it's been almost three years. it took about fourteen tries. i'm wasting time because i don't want to finish my papers. i'm terrified of what my gpa is going to look like after this semester. see ya 4.0.
that sucks because all i wanted was to keep that up and hopefully get a scholarship so I could afford to go to northwestern. did i mention that i love chicago? i guess thats a more recent development. well, give me another three years and i'll let you know how that goes. i've got two more full semesters, and then student teaching. so..a year and a half. then i'm ditching this place. same story i've been kvetching about since i was sixteen. i need out of here. not much has changed and thats sad. i mean, a lot has changed. but too much is the same for me to feel comfortable.
oh yeah, i ditched art school last year. social studies education is where my life is at right now. go figure. i was a manager at a store up until yesterday. delias, three years, done.
i think i've become somewhat more outgoing. or maybe i haven't. i don't know. I let myself become more open to people and experiences in the past three months, and you know what that taught me? People will ALWAYS let you down. don't make me think that you're interested and then just be like "lol just kidding, i started seeing someone."
it goes to show that i still want to be with you. the same asshole i've been putting up with for..oh seven years now. on and off and on and off. two days ago, i think we were great. two days later, and you've disappeared again. i get it, you're twenty one and you don't want to be tied down. but i've invested a lot of time and energy into this (however unhealthy that may be) and sometimes i just want to know what is leading somewhere. this is vague. i'm always cryptic.
however, this year, to recap has been the best in terms of shows. i've fully embraced that i love pop (read: shitty) music, and i've gotten to go on a lot of adventures because of it. let's see...oh well i saw sunny day real estate's reunion, but that was 2009.
2010:
alkaline trio and cursive (x3) although the one show got rained out (that was an absurd journey), and cursive bailed on the rain check show.
murder by death a million times (or like four..but in the span of an actual year, its been about 9)
bomb the music industry all the time
saw simon joyner in an apartment, sat next to conor oberst (my fifteen year old self was stoked)
cap'n jazz twice (philly and chicago?!)
paul baribeau x 2 (i love you.)
DESAPARECIDOS, curisve, bright eyes, simon joyner IN OMAHA?! after a journey with some british folks who found us through the internet. there was also a terribly disappointing cubs game to follow, but regardless, they've won me over as a fan.
tim kasher solo show (what a weird fucking night.)
riot fest, in which, i flew out to chicago, got to stay in some swank apartment uptown (and also in the wonderfully weird hyde park)
then i got to see the lawrence arms two more times (who'd have thunk it?) in one night.
and two weeks later, matt skiba and brendan kelly (quite possibly the best time i've had at a show, which was weird considering i was by myself. or well, kind of by myself. and i drank myself into oblivion anyways. ended up on stage and stood next to matt skiba. (so awesome and incredibly nerdy at the same time.)
and then i saw owen last weekend, which was wonderful. and for the record, i'm glad i didn't see jeff mangum, where ever he might have been in brooklyn. mike kinsella means more to me anyways. i probably just lost a lot of friends and a lot of credibility with that one, but its my personal opinion and i'm sticking to it. also, i just realized how much time i wasted. awesome. this was mostly so i could recap three years from now and be like "hey, you had a pretty eventful/decent/fun year in 2010." but now i have to go write a brief history of chicago. hopefully next time i check this thing i'll be able to write about my life there. if not, i'm sure there will be some other weird/amusing things to report.
oh. and if anyone finds this update, you should probably be reading this instead:
http://badsandwichchronicles.blogspot.com/
