If Only My Heart Had A Heart
I dont know what the hell to do. I'm so fucking confused about everything in my life.
Dan and I made out last night....I liked it, I've liked him for a while, he's sooo fucking hot too. But he has a girlfriend. He said he loves her. And I dont know what's going to happen now. Then today Josh was being...well Josh. We were like making out in the parking lot, and he kept saying he wanted to fuck me. And Dan saw me sitting on his lap...and I dont know what the hell to do. I do like Josh, but I dont want to get in to another relationship where we're just hooking up all the time. It made me feel like shit. And Dan, I've liked him for a while, but I dont want him to break up with his girlfriend for me, and I dont want it to ruin our friendship. Plus I've told him like everything, and now he know's all my weaknesses and could use them against me, even though I dont think he would. He's not like that.
I spent most of today crying and trying to let my mom take me home. But she wouldnt. I just hope things get better. Cus it seems like my pain has gotten even worse latley.
Fuck life.