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[_breathing]

hey wait...
why dont you just take what you want?
is it so easy to walk away from me?

I'm gunna stand here.
and I'm not gunna move.
I'm not gunna move because I cant feel small. I can't feel helpless.
If I walk to you, im gunna feel helpless.
I dont have the courage to feel small.
So listen
you have to come here and invade my personal space.
I like you, I like you a lot, and i will resist
but you have to keep invading. and pushing. because what I really need is to be forced to feel.

Why don't you come in here?
Why cant anyone just want this bad enough, and not ask me but show me.
I cant move.
Im frozen.
Im always frozen.
But all you have to do is do it, and you dont do it. They never do.
But heres the thing. Its getting lonely in my space.

But youre not coming.

Do you see why I leave?
I run because I have to. because if you dont crash into my life right now, i wont ever have the courage to talk to you again.
and i leave.
and it repeats until somebody...somebody.
Until somebody has the courage to invade my space.