well of course you can't make everyone happy but.. i consider you my best friend and i always thought you would be but.. things have been going down hill lately and josh is always.. how can i put this into words.. hmm.. in the way of you and i talking about things, hanging out, just doing the things we used to. i dont mean to sound like a bitch if i do, but josh doesnt need to be in the same exact place with you 24/365. doesnt he have friends? i mean i know he does but.. he doesnt talk to them anymore, just like you are slowing starting to not talk to you friends anymore because of him, i know you dont choose to do this, its just happening. hes choosing to not hangout with his friends and it seems like hes making your desicions for you too. he's really weird too.. i think hes trying to be a "bad boy" because he knows that you normally date "bad boys" and it really isnt working for him, hes just making himself look like an ass and hurting other peoples feelings, well i mean mine, and his families. hes never there for his family like he used to be. hes always talking about how bad of a family they are. how can they be a bad family when all they do is love him care about him and all this other shit. to me it sounds he likes got pointed to the "SMOOTH ROAD", while you and i are taking the rocky/bumpy road when we should have been pointed in the same direction as him.
i have no clue what im really saying but its making sense in my head.
i totally understand what you mean i love josh with all my heart but sometimes i just dont understand what he has to complain about when i look at his life now. i really wish i did but i dont know maybe we are just stupid. i, personally would have given anything to have what he has or just have the family he has. i mean ive cried day and night about stuff that i wish could be different i now know that people that have it all want more and ppl that dont have it just accept it and try to live on. if you understand what i mean by the last part
i have no clue what im really saying but its making sense in my head.
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