Dearest livejournal
Today is the yearly time that I browse through some old entries and look back on what I used to feel and think and write.
Just like everytime I see a pessimistic, confused, love desperate, mixed feeling person. And if I could write more like the way I used too, every entry would be happy, satisfied, ranting about how much I love Marlon and what we have. Of corse there would be the occasional wanting to punch something, but never anything short of annoyance.
I knew from the first time I saw him that he was different and possibly someone for me, and to make that feeling even stronger he feels the same for me. We've been together for a good amount of time now and on so many levels he is exactly, and more of what I had been waiting for. With him I have looked past the fear of distance, jealously, awkward family functions, and being my hard headed self. I know that he will keep me happy for a long time to come and it's like this...."you are who i am inside that no one else sees, and i love you for that."
Just like everytime I see a pessimistic, confused, love desperate, mixed feeling person. And if I could write more like the way I used too, every entry would be happy, satisfied, ranting about how much I love Marlon and what we have. Of corse there would be the occasional wanting to punch something, but never anything short of annoyance.
I knew from the first time I saw him that he was different and possibly someone for me, and to make that feeling even stronger he feels the same for me. We've been together for a good amount of time now and on so many levels he is exactly, and more of what I had been waiting for. With him I have looked past the fear of distance, jealously, awkward family functions, and being my hard headed self. I know that he will keep me happy for a long time to come and it's like this...."you are who i am inside that no one else sees, and i love you for that."