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I'm going to first off admit that I am overwhelmingly emotional right now.
I'm afraid of many things, as I always am in life.
I'm not exactly sure of what to think or do at this point.
I played the idiot once, I watched the next idiot absorb it, and now...
that I saw and read what I always thought was true....what the fuck am I suppose to do now?
I've been the other girl, the first girl, the next girl. I am not oblivious to what was.
I can take it in and know it was the past, but being lied too...so sincerely...so emotionally...so believable.
I got the biggest liar, heart lost, backstabbing person out of my life, to think theres another clever liar out there, and I'm in love with them. I just want to walk away, numb. And not even give a fuck.
I'm afraid of many things, as I always am in life.
I'm not exactly sure of what to think or do at this point.
I played the idiot once, I watched the next idiot absorb it, and now...
that I saw and read what I always thought was true....what the fuck am I suppose to do now?
I've been the other girl, the first girl, the next girl. I am not oblivious to what was.
I can take it in and know it was the past, but being lied too...so sincerely...so emotionally...so believable.
I got the biggest liar, heart lost, backstabbing person out of my life, to think theres another clever liar out there, and I'm in love with them. I just want to walk away, numb. And not even give a fuck.