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I wish this summer never happened. I wish that Melissa stayed here all summer and never went to Israel. I wish that she started dating Ryan before summer started. I wish I never compromised our friendship over a boy. I wish I would have opened my eyes to realize I would be the one losing. I wish I wouldn't feel like shit. I wish I could still be myself and talk about the fun things that happened this summer without everyone feeling uncomfortable. I wish I could still consider Ryan my BFF, but I don't know if it can be that way anymore. I feel like we can't even relate anymore--we don't even give each other advice anymore. It just doesn't feel like we were even friends, and it hurts so much to see our friendship like that. I don't want it to be like that. I wish this summer NEVER HAPPENED.