haha
wow i am the biggest drama queen ever! lol. i realized while i was in my self pity stage that i was completely overreacting. i am so stupid! i need to care less about this kind of thing.
i know there is only one person in the whole world(other then megan but we hardly ever talk about stuff which makes me really really sad!) that knows what i am talkin about because this girl is my only friend here. my only confidant. the only person who is TRULY willing to listen (and that i want to tell)she doesnt understand that though, and even if she does she cant be there for me. and thats ok. i cant be mad at her. i should be happy for her. thats what a true friend does. im going to stop complaining about this.
i just pray it will all be over tuesday, when that depressing day of couples has passed. i hate being here. here meaning this school. meaning this room alone. meaning this state of mind that supresses all of my emotions. her meaning not home. here meaning this body that has reached an extreme grossness level (i need a makeover). here meaning here.
i know there is only one person in the whole world(other then megan but we hardly ever talk about stuff which makes me really really sad!) that knows what i am talkin about because this girl is my only friend here. my only confidant. the only person who is TRULY willing to listen (and that i want to tell)she doesnt understand that though, and even if she does she cant be there for me. and thats ok. i cant be mad at her. i should be happy for her. thats what a true friend does. im going to stop complaining about this.
i just pray it will all be over tuesday, when that depressing day of couples has passed. i hate being here. here meaning this school. meaning this room alone. meaning this state of mind that supresses all of my emotions. her meaning not home. here meaning this body that has reached an extreme grossness level (i need a makeover). here meaning here.