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He's coming off of three years of being single and sleeping around and has to get back into ‘relationship mode’. Those words are heavy and he doesn’t want to use them if he’s not 110% sure he can mean it and stick to it. He’s sorry that I have to ‘suffer through’ it, waiting for him to be ready. When he was talking about me the other night with his friends (and an x who's dating his best friend now) he didn't talk about me as a girlfriend, but the most amazing girl in the world. He doesn’t want to sleep with other girls. He feels bad that he didn’t say anything but he got scared. Him being down here will completely change the situation, whereas his life in Cleveland, he doesn’t consider all the time how his decisions are going to effect me because his life is completely seperae from the one we are going to have. He called me his best friend as well as his best lover, and that he appericates everything that I do for him. he said i didn't blow it, and he feels bad. I don’t know. I’m still a mess.