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there really are some days that no matter what happens, i just don't think i can do it. i don't think i can pull through. i don't think i want to wake up the next day. call it severe bipolar, or whatever. but so many things in my life seem like their in place, and then one tiny little thing later, i feel like my whole world is about to come crashing down and i have no one to help me hold it up.
i feel i'm propping up all of this weight and on top of that i'm giving 100% of my support to everyone else for everything they're doing, yet i get nothing in return. i feel like i have no one to talk to or tell things. when i freak out, or start crying, i don't have anyone to call.
i think that's the worst part.
i'm just so tired and so sick of everything that happens to disappoint me time after time after time. spending three consecutive weekends inside, alone with the television is not something that makes me feel good about myself.
i just wish i could save myself, seeing as no one else wants to take on the task.
i feel i'm propping up all of this weight and on top of that i'm giving 100% of my support to everyone else for everything they're doing, yet i get nothing in return. i feel like i have no one to talk to or tell things. when i freak out, or start crying, i don't have anyone to call.
i think that's the worst part.
i'm just so tired and so sick of everything that happens to disappoint me time after time after time. spending three consecutive weekends inside, alone with the television is not something that makes me feel good about myself.
i just wish i could save myself, seeing as no one else wants to take on the task.