things started to fall back into place
a little over a week ago, I hated life. today, things seem to be getting so much better.
I'm in a struggle to move on from my past. including a certain person who I don't want to let go, but I feel I should. I recently found out some news from his mouth that give me more confidence to do so. :sigh:
Jessi has officially decided to move to Flagstaff to go to NAU. permitted she finds a job that pays as much as her job here, and of course gets accepted. I wish her all the best luck, but a part of me wishes she doesn't get accepted so she'll stay here. I barely see her enough as it is, I prob won't ever see her if she goes up there. I can be a little selfish, right? =/
saturday night Matt proposed to Danie.
a few weeks ago Danyell was proposed to AND found out she was pregnant.
why do I feel like I'm stuck in the same place just going in circles? everyone's lives are changing drastically and all I have to show is I have my own apt. whoopty-doo!
I met a boy about two weeks ago. we're hitting it off pretty well. I want to take it slow, but I gotta tell ya, it's definitely not easy for me. I can't believe I'm saying this, but I want to jump his bones so bad! haha. boys.fucking.SUCK.
I've been trying to gain my friendship with JJ back. he's not making it easy. for months he was trying and I couldn't let him in; now the tables have turned. I guess I lost my chance. but I won't give up. he means too much to me to give up trying.
my managers at work are starting to trust me A LOT more. it makes me happy. it comes with a greater deal of responsibility though. such as, a few of the owners of Black Angus AND about 5 or 6 of the corporate guys are coming to my store for lunch in the morning. guess who my managers have chosen to serve them...yepp, me. I'm nervous as fuck. I can do this with my eyes closed, but I freeze when it comes to corporate people. we'll see how this goes lol. plus, my manager is paying me $25 to do it since they're not going to let me have any other tables until the guys leave.
there's nothing else really to say. this is already long enough. well, wish me luck for tomorrow!! later days kids♥
I'm in a struggle to move on from my past. including a certain person who I don't want to let go, but I feel I should. I recently found out some news from his mouth that give me more confidence to do so. :sigh:
Jessi has officially decided to move to Flagstaff to go to NAU. permitted she finds a job that pays as much as her job here, and of course gets accepted. I wish her all the best luck, but a part of me wishes she doesn't get accepted so she'll stay here. I barely see her enough as it is, I prob won't ever see her if she goes up there. I can be a little selfish, right? =/
saturday night Matt proposed to Danie.
a few weeks ago Danyell was proposed to AND found out she was pregnant.
why do I feel like I'm stuck in the same place just going in circles? everyone's lives are changing drastically and all I have to show is I have my own apt. whoopty-doo!
I met a boy about two weeks ago. we're hitting it off pretty well. I want to take it slow, but I gotta tell ya, it's definitely not easy for me. I can't believe I'm saying this, but I want to jump his bones so bad! haha. boys.fucking.SUCK.
I've been trying to gain my friendship with JJ back. he's not making it easy. for months he was trying and I couldn't let him in; now the tables have turned. I guess I lost my chance. but I won't give up. he means too much to me to give up trying.
my managers at work are starting to trust me A LOT more. it makes me happy. it comes with a greater deal of responsibility though. such as, a few of the owners of Black Angus AND about 5 or 6 of the corporate guys are coming to my store for lunch in the morning. guess who my managers have chosen to serve them...yepp, me. I'm nervous as fuck. I can do this with my eyes closed, but I freeze when it comes to corporate people. we'll see how this goes lol. plus, my manager is paying me $25 to do it since they're not going to let me have any other tables until the guys leave.
there's nothing else really to say. this is already long enough. well, wish me luck for tomorrow!! later days kids♥