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i don't know how to refrain from bawling my eyes out 6 hours a day over practically nothing and it's fucking up relationships i have. i have no idea why i am so emotionally unstable. half of the time i KNOW i have absolutely nothing to be upset over. but i overanalyze everything. my brain has this way of bending everything around so everything and anything was said or done to try to hurt me. i'm perfectly aware the world doesn't revolve around me but it's like my life is completely black and white. my HEAD is completely black and white. if i read this entry in let's estimate..20 minutes, i would say i was being completely irrational and ridiculous for thinking with an ounce of sanity, which i will later view as insanity. you get the picture.