YOU MAKE ME WANNA LALA
Things feel so out of place.
Ben and I aren't together, My mom is acting so strange? I fucking told her kahlid touched me and she didn't even fucking do anything about it... ben keeps kissing me and he told me he loves me but nothing is going to happen between us.. I know it. So anyways, I just slept most of the day, woke up and ben came and got me and we went to a movie with him and his mommy:) I really love his mom. she makes me feel like i am sopost to be there.. like i am sopost to be apart of that family, like i belong there. That is what i have wanted to feel for so long and now that i feel it, were not even together anymore. What the hell is that crap haha.. so anyways, last night he said that im still his baby he just can't call me his girlfriend.. and then he said basicly that he didn't want to tell his friends that we are going to go back out.. well that ticked me off of course.. and i said no that i didn't want to be with him if he had to hid our relaitonship..So I don't know things are just werid with us now.. So he came over tonight after he went to booneys or w/e and of course he was high when he got here... When is he not? we just snuggled and watched 13 going on 30 :) I love that movie.. he was laughing beucase i know the whole thriller dance and i was showing him haha IM A NERD so anyways....My mom is leaving in the mouring at 6:45 shes trying to take my keys from me:( wtf bleh to her.. lol but krista went out tonight i ididnt get to hang out with her.. i tihnk she is sick of me hehe but anyways.. im going to go lay in bed and think about stuff then paint my nails:)
Kalie