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I think I forgot I even had a livejournal..
Well. I'm on spring break, and I've been spending it working out and reading. It feels really nice.
I just recently read the Twilight series and I'm in loveeeee. The next book doesn't come out until in August and that makes me a bit sad..it's the types of books where you're almost scared to read something else after it because you just know nothing else can compare.
Even though I love school, it's nice to just chill out. I'm so happy with where I'm at in my life right now..of course there could be some changes likee having my own place, but in time it will happen. I just have to be a bit more patient,
I love the fact that I've found what I want to do with the rest of my life, and that going to school for it has just gotten me even more excited about it. I guess in a way, I don't know what I exactly want to do, because there's a lot of things you can do with a Human Services degree, but I'm starting to really narrow it down. I now know I don't want to work in the Substance Abuse area..i've used too many substances myself to really be able to help someone else find sobriety.
What else is new..mmm well, I've started meditating. I always have, but I think it's really gone to the next level. It's a very eye opening and peaceful practice.
I've been in a relationship for the last six months with a wonderful boy who treats me like a princess..
I remember when I was so stand-offish. I never had any relationships..and lately its just been one, two, three..Josh definitely came at a time in my life where I was not only ending one relationship, but also trying to move on from a former. The timing was a bit crazy, but also good for me. He also was just getting out of a relationship, so it allowed us to go slow and move at our own pace, which was nice for a change.
Josh is three years older than me, which I love. He's really quite a 'hippie' with his beliefs and views, which I also love. He has his own place, which is where I am most of the time..and I have great conversations with him. He's mature and even if we don't always agree on everything, we have very friendly debates that always end in kisses :) haa. Anyways, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I always knew the boys that I was around in highschool and such were never really right for me..and I'm happy to have found Josh.
If there's anything that I've learned about love is that it doesn't last forever. At least, in some cases. I can't really say it doesn't because I look at my parents who have been together for 20 years and counting and are still in love, waltzing around holding hands and kissing like they're teenagers back in highschool. So in a way, I guess I do believe love CAN last, but at the same time I've grown to believe that certain people come into our lives at certain times and for that amount of time, we are meant to be..we learn from them, and from the relationship, we grow from them, we get hurt and get stronger from them, and then we learn how to move on and how to survive because of them. I'm not saying it always is this way, if I thought that it would have been impossible to open my heart up to Josh, but that's my view on relationships right now.
Could I see myself one day moving in with Josh, maybe even marrying him? Sure, I can..but I also have been able to see it before. I don't have my guard up, but I've also learned to be independent and realize that even if I am alone, I can be just as happy...sort of :)
Anyway, enough about that. Other news is that I'm going to be a God Mom. My best friend is pregnant..pretty crazy. I'm just going to keep being there for her, and supporting her in her decision to keep her baby. I'm also throwing her a baby shower in October.
That's pretty much it for now..but I think I'll start updating more often
Well. I'm on spring break, and I've been spending it working out and reading. It feels really nice.
I just recently read the Twilight series and I'm in loveeeee. The next book doesn't come out until in August and that makes me a bit sad..it's the types of books where you're almost scared to read something else after it because you just know nothing else can compare.
Even though I love school, it's nice to just chill out. I'm so happy with where I'm at in my life right now..of course there could be some changes likee having my own place, but in time it will happen. I just have to be a bit more patient,
I love the fact that I've found what I want to do with the rest of my life, and that going to school for it has just gotten me even more excited about it. I guess in a way, I don't know what I exactly want to do, because there's a lot of things you can do with a Human Services degree, but I'm starting to really narrow it down. I now know I don't want to work in the Substance Abuse area..i've used too many substances myself to really be able to help someone else find sobriety.
What else is new..mmm well, I've started meditating. I always have, but I think it's really gone to the next level. It's a very eye opening and peaceful practice.
I've been in a relationship for the last six months with a wonderful boy who treats me like a princess..
I remember when I was so stand-offish. I never had any relationships..and lately its just been one, two, three..Josh definitely came at a time in my life where I was not only ending one relationship, but also trying to move on from a former. The timing was a bit crazy, but also good for me. He also was just getting out of a relationship, so it allowed us to go slow and move at our own pace, which was nice for a change.
Josh is three years older than me, which I love. He's really quite a 'hippie' with his beliefs and views, which I also love. He has his own place, which is where I am most of the time..and I have great conversations with him. He's mature and even if we don't always agree on everything, we have very friendly debates that always end in kisses :) haa. Anyways, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I always knew the boys that I was around in highschool and such were never really right for me..and I'm happy to have found Josh.
If there's anything that I've learned about love is that it doesn't last forever. At least, in some cases. I can't really say it doesn't because I look at my parents who have been together for 20 years and counting and are still in love, waltzing around holding hands and kissing like they're teenagers back in highschool. So in a way, I guess I do believe love CAN last, but at the same time I've grown to believe that certain people come into our lives at certain times and for that amount of time, we are meant to be..we learn from them, and from the relationship, we grow from them, we get hurt and get stronger from them, and then we learn how to move on and how to survive because of them. I'm not saying it always is this way, if I thought that it would have been impossible to open my heart up to Josh, but that's my view on relationships right now.
Could I see myself one day moving in with Josh, maybe even marrying him? Sure, I can..but I also have been able to see it before. I don't have my guard up, but I've also learned to be independent and realize that even if I am alone, I can be just as happy...sort of :)
Anyway, enough about that. Other news is that I'm going to be a God Mom. My best friend is pregnant..pretty crazy. I'm just going to keep being there for her, and supporting her in her decision to keep her baby. I'm also throwing her a baby shower in October.
That's pretty much it for now..but I think I'll start updating more often