Till The World Caves In....(Part 1)

[_alteredmind]

Well it's been more than awhile since i last updated so....since Liz wanted me to update again....this one is for you budd`eh. - The following entries all take place from early Jan - Now and i met all these girls off Myspace....Marj was right when she said "Myspace ruins lives

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[______last_call]

since Liz wanted me to update again....this one is for you budd`eh
I feel very special right now *giggles*
Carlos, you're such a P-I-M-P!!
But why does he want you to stay away??

[_alteredmind]

Cause he's never heard of me and he doesn't like the way i talk to his sister...like "i love you" and whatnot.

[______last_call]

does Betsy know about all this?

[_alteredmind]

Yup.....and funny cause i thought of not telling her before..

[______last_call]

that would have been a bad choice. don't let him get to you. keep doing what you were doing. i mean it's your relationship with her. just try and not hurt her. and if he keeps on bothering maybe she should tell him to back off.

[_alteredmind]

I'm not...what IS getting to me is how she and i are/were growing apart....and today...i dunno fuck...i just don't know what to do...not this time

[______last_call]

did you tell her how you feel about it??

[_alteredmind]

Nah but....i think she knows....at least i hope she does

[______last_call]

maybe you should try and tell her. cuz then it just seems like you dont care enough about the relationship. or maybe it would seem like that to me cuz you said you missed Mariella's presense. i dont know.

[_alteredmind]

Wha...no no NOOOOOOO hell NOOOO lol....Mariella has nothing to do with this....she's another story and apart of my past....trust me Liz i care A LOT about this relationship....i'm not gonna let Betsy go without a fight

[______last_call]

then tell her how your feeling. its something you have to do. an important part of a relationship is communication. tell her how you feel and maybe things could change. if you don't and everything goes bad, you'll be left asking yourself "what if..." questions.

[_alteredmind]

I know you're right....the last thing i want is to wonder "what if"....i fucking hate when that happens to me...and i'll do something...just gotta wait to see how things turn out first or else i'll make an ass out of myself...i am planning on asking her out soon but not with the way things are now..

[______last_call]

haha, yeah don't make an ass out of yourself. that's so embarassing!!

[_alteredmind]

I can't make any promises XD but yeah we'll see what happens next

[______last_call]

YAY!! i think that's the only reason why i still have an LJ. just so i can comment and read how your life is going. seriously dude, write a book. you'll make millions!! fuck a job!! live off your books!!

[_alteredmind]

LMAO seriously? you only still have an LJ cause of me? lol oh shit Liz i feel mad flattered XD an me write a book....i'm not gonna lie...the thought has crossed my mind...even to write a TV show/movie....but i don't think my life is quite interesting enough to sell or write =/